A list. I started making a list of the pros and cons of being with Scott or Aaron. Of what life would be like with both boys.
Maybe five minutes after starting the list I angrily crumpled it up and threw it away. Actually writing down all the reasons for loving two people makes my head hurt. There were way too many things I adored about both of them.
Making a stupid list would take hours, possibly days. It's Friday now. After the weekend there's only one week of school left. Just one and then summer.
I swore that I'd make my choice before vacation started. And I will...Just not this second.
I'm up early, for some reason (teacher's day or whatever) school was canceled. Normally I would be excited to have a three day weekend, but this just means more of trying to figure out who I'm going to spend time with.
Both Aaron and Scott have already texted me to see if I have any plans. Sigh. I opted to ignore my phone for now.
I went downstairs and started a fresh pot of coffee before heading back to my bedroom. I attempted to catch a few extra minutes of sleep but every time I closed my eyes it was like big neon signs reading; 'Choose Aaron!' 'Don't be crazy choose Scott!', kept flashing.
I groaned in frustration, flinging out of bed. The blankets and comforter fell to the floor in a tangle. Another mess to deal with. Great.
Since sleep wasn't possible I got dressed and rushed to the kitchen for some coffee. Mom was there filling up her travel mug, dressed in her purple heart scrubs.
"Morning dear. Doing anything special?" She asked pleasantly. I on the other hand had never felt more like an irritated grizzly bear in my whole life.
I shrugged, filling my own mug to the brim with delicious caffeine overload coffee. "Hm, well...How are things going with your uh, predicament?" "Ah yes, my unfortunate predicament. Just as crappy as ever I'm afraid." I muttered.
"Oh I'm sorry to hear that Chloe, having trouble making up your mind?" "Pretty much." She nodded, understanding.
"Well what does your head think? And your heart?" "I honestly don't know." I admitted hopelessly. We drank in silence for a long moment before she spoke again.
"You know, I tend to go by my gut." "Your gut huh?" I repeated skeptically. She smiled. "Yes bunny rabbit. My gut is what told me to choose your father after all. Shoot is that the time, I have to go to work! I Love you Chloe, if you need anything call me." She said quickly, jogging towards the door.
"Alright, love you too have a good day." I said. I sipped my coffee going over our conversation in my head. My mom went by her gut and ended up divorced. What the hell? I can't possibly make the same mistake.
Going by your gut only gets you in trouble. Leaves regret and sadness. That was probably the point she was trying to make. Yeah, that seems right.
Most of the morning and early afternoon went by oddly quick. I had a weird feeling that the day was building up to something. I have no idea what though. It was probably from too much caffeine. I need to lay off.
Since my phone kept buzzing I (like a coward) called and asked Alyssa to call the guys and tell them I needed 'alone time'. She agreed, but first told me how strange I was. She was right, I am pretty strange.
After hours of simply staring off into space blankly, I realized it was almost 7. Whoa! What had I even done today? Like, nothing, literally nothing.
"Chloe, do you need medical attention?" I glanced up to see Benji staring at me worriedly. "Hm what? Oh, sorry no I'm fine." I mumbled. Embarrassment turned my face red.
