Tear in My Heart (Tyler Joseph x Reader)

chapter 10

Hannah's POV

We sat on my couch for a solid hour, just talking and laughing. We kissed here and there, but no making out... yet. 

"I'm telling you that if penguins had wings, they still wouldn't choose to fly." Tyler said, in all serious. 

"You're going to look at me and say they wouldn't choose to fly to somewhere better than where they live? Instead of having to walk all the time?" I questioned him. Yes, we're actually having this conversation right now. This is the kind of random things we get on about. 

"I guess, maybe they would. I don't know anymore. I'm confused now..." He trailed off, leaning back on my couch. I giggled at him which caused him to smile. "What would you like to do, Rubes?" He asked. 

I thought for a moment, "Let's watch funny videos on YouTube." I suggested and he nodded, smiling. I grabbed my remote and put YouTube on the screen. "I want to watch you on here." 

"Because I'm so awesome, I know." He said, smiling at himself. 

"Oh, that's totally why." I jokingly rolled my eyes and leaned back also so that my back was resting on his side, in a way. I typed in 'twenty one pilots funny moments.' "There are so many of these compilation videos! Whoa!" I said, surprised. There weren't this many before the tour. 

"Maybe because Josh and I are a hilarious team." 

"I miss Josh, we should invite him over." I said, pressing play on the video. He nodded and we both watched. I cracked up so many times and every time I did, he would laugh too. His arm was draped around my shoulders and my head rested on his shoulder/chest. We were just letting the videos autoplay and we were 3 'funny moments' videos in when something else started to autoplay. It was titled 'Ryler Best Moments part 1'. 

"Are we Ryler?" I asked him, seeing photos of us popping up on the screen. 

"Yes indeed, that's our couple name!" He exclaimed, with a smile. 

"But we weren't even a couple when these things were happening!"

"The Clique has wanted us to date for like a year now, they will be so excited to know that we actually are." He said, rubbing my shoulder. I shifted my position so I was looking at him. 

"I'm scared to tell them actually, can we not yet?" I asked. His brown eyes looked into mine. 

"Of course. I will tell them when we are ready." He said, genuinely. He pecked my lips and our eyes averted back to the screen. Photos and videos of the two of us filled the screen. So many memories with this boy, it's insane. I don't want the memories to ever end, he's my best friend. I started to wonder though, is he my boyfriend now too? I really don't know what's happening. He sure acts like he is. 

Tyler's POV

It's sad that Ruby is scared to tell the Clique about us. I know they would accept it, and love it. Why doesn't she know that? It's okay though, she's probably nervous about a lot of things since everything is changing for us now. I just want to shout to the world that we are dating though. But, I will wait and I probably shouldn't mention anything until we are official. Until I ask her to be my girlfriend. I plan on asking her soon, I have the perfect way in my head... all planned out. It needs to be perfect because she deserves that. 

"Ty, I told Jenn about us. I hope that's okay," She said, pausing the video of us on the screen. I looked down at her. She had shifted her position to laying her head in my lap. I was playing with her hair as usual. Her hair is so gorgeous. She is so gorgeous. 

"I'm okay with that. I'm sure she had some strong words about me, I know she doesn't like me." I said, causing Ruby to frown. 

"She doesn't. But she has no reason for it. And yeah, she was negative about it for sure." She said sadly and closed her eyes. She closes her eyes when she's either concentrating, sleepy, or comfortable. 

"Tell me about it?" I asked her. She opened her eyes and sighed, giving me an 'are you sure' look. I nodded and gave her a reassuring smile. 

"Well, she told me how random it was. She said that we are too different to be a couple. You're depressing and I'm not, blah blah blah. She said you'll never have time for me because of your career. And she said you're not hot." She rambled on, every word slightly jabbing me a bit. 

"Do you agree with any of it? You can tell me if you do," I stopped playing with her hair and rubbed her arm. 

"Well..." She closed her eyes, thinking, then opened them again. 

I was nervous for her answer and my heart was pounding. Is this the moment where I wake up from my dream and realize that this is too good to be true? 

"I agree that it was random. Because that first kiss caught me off guard. But I'm glad it was that way. I don't think we are 'too' different, or else our friendship wouldn't have worked for 9 years. We are different, yes, but that makes us the dynamic duo that we always have been. You're not depressing, I hate that people think that. Yeah, you have sad moments and a few issues... but who doesn't? You're the happiest guy I know and I wish more people got to see that. I am nervous about the time thing, like one day you may get used to my existence and just stop putting in effort, but that's just me overthinking. And you are hot. I've always thought you were cute but recently... damn Ty, you are one sexy man." 

I smiled at her before kissing her cheek and replying, "I'm honestly surprised I had the balls to randomly kiss you like that, but I'm also glad it was that way. We aren't 'too' different. We balance each other out perfectly and I love it. We've been best friends for 9 years and we still have 71 years to go as best friends. I am depressing honestly, but YOU bring out the best in me. If I didn't have you, I probably wouldn't smile or laugh or be happy. You are my source of happiness, no matter what. I promise on God and on my life, that I will never get 'used to your existence.' You are my dream. I will put effort into you until you either ask me to stop or I die. And thanks for thinking I'm hot now, even though I'm not. I could talk about how hot you are now and always have been, but that would take awhile." 

She smiled big at me and pulled me into a kiss on the lips. We kissed for awhile before she pulled away. "Please talk to me about my hotness in your eyes, I'd love to hear." She smirked at me. I laughed and began my long rant about how beautiful she is to me. Let's just say, I probably talked her ear off for a solid 35 minutes.