Tear in My Heart (Tyler Joseph x Reader)

chapter 4

Hannah's POV

Josh and I were walking to get coffee in the arena. It was our thing, coffee. We love coffee. We go around places to try new types of coffee. Tyler hates coffee. He likes Redbull though, so he usually just drinks that if he comes along on Josh and I's coffee adventures. I really needed this coffee adventure right now, my mind is running so much with thoughts of what is happening recently with Tyler and I. More than friends? I don't even know what this means. 

"Josh, I really needed this coffee." I laughed and he looked over at me. He knows something is up. 

"What's going on in that little pretty mind of yours, Ruby?" He said, touching my temple.

"I'm sure you've heard what happened earlier with Tyler, yeah?" He nodded at my question so I continued, "Well... I don't know what to do." I confessed as we made it to the coffee table. He grabbed two cups, handing me one. I took it.

"What do you mean?" He asked, as he poured the hot coffee into my cup and then his. He left me room for cream, but not room in his. He knows by now how I like my coffee. I chuckled. 

"I just, I don't know Josh. We've been best friends for 9 years. I've never thought of him in this way... It's weird." I added cream to my coffee and mixed it, before opening 3 packs of sugar to put in. 

"Why is it weird? He's thought about you like this for 3 years now," He said, sipping his coffee. I stopped mixing mine, in shock. 

"Wait wait wait, 3 years? He's had a crush on me for 3 years? What the frig?" 

"Yeah, I've been sick of hearing about it actually. He talked about it all the time. How much he liked you, and wanted to tell you, and how cute you looked in a certain outfit, and blah blah blah" Josh said, jokingly rolling his eyes. 

"How did I never catch on to this?" 

"I'm assuming it's because you never thought of him that way, so you never thought to look for it on his end. But trust me, it was there. Do you not want to be more than friends with him? Because he seems to think you agreed to try it.." Josh looked me in the eyes, concerned for his friend's feelings about to be crushed by me. 

"No, I did agree to try it. And I will try it. If he sees something in me, then there must be something there, right? I think he would be a great significant other, he's so kind and funny. But, it will just take some getting used to I guess. I'm more nervous for the aftermath," I said honestly, sipping my AMAZING coffee. 

"The aftermath?" Josh tilted his head at me, confused but still taking a sip of his coffee. We were both almost finished with our first cup already. 

"Like, if this doesn't work out between him and I. I'm scared to lose his friendship. He's been the closest person to me for so long, it would be weird if we dated and it didn't work out. How would we be able to go back to before? I guess even now, since we kissed three times... it would be hard to go back to normal." I sighed, finishing off my cup of coffee. Josh was prepared and held up the pot of coffee to fill my cup back up, again leaving room for cream. 

"Ruby, I'm going to be honest. It will be hard to go back to normal if it doesn't work out. But let me be even more honest, you guys are perfect for each other. And if it doesn't work out, I will personally never believe in love and I will probably just jump off a cliff." He said in all honesty but I laughed anyways. I mean, he's hilarious when he says such serious comments. 

"You really think we would be perfect?" I asked, biting my lip and looking at the yellow haired boy. 

"Yes, Ruby. You guys would be and will be perfect together. Just give him a chance," He smiled at me and I smiled back. I guess I will give it a chance. 

(FWD to after the concert) 

"AMAZING JOB GUYS OH MY GOODNESS YOU ARE AWESOME!" I shouted to Josh and Tyler as the exited the stage. Josh side hugged me and gave me a high five before going off to change. Tyler came down the stairs and ran right up to me. He picked me up and spun me around, smiling. "You seriously did so good, Ty!" 

"Thank you Rubes, I felt that was one of my best performances." He said, setting me down and looking me in the eyes. He looked down at my lips and I unlocked eye contact, looking around. He noticed and let me go, still smiling. I smiled too, I couldn't help it. His smile is SO CONTAGIOUS. I love when he's happy. 

"Want to go settle down and change, Ty?" I asked. He nodded and we both walked to his green room. When we got there, I laid on the couch. He plopped down right on top of me, causing me to laugh. "Ty, you are sweaty and heavy!!! Get off!" I giggled. 

He gasped and put his hand to his chest, "Did you just call me fat?" 

I laughed at him and tried to push me off, "No, wait, yeah I did! Get off me, fatty! You're crushing my bones!" 

He laughed at me, but still tried to look like I hurt his feelings. "Ouch, Ruby. Tell me how you really feel!" 

"I just did!" I said, still trying to push him off of me. He finally gave in and stood up. "Great, now you've made me all wet." I said, wiping his sweat off my neck and face. Disgusting. 

"Oh yeah? Already?" He said, smirking at me through the bathroom mirror. I looked at him confused as he raised an eyebrow at me. I then realized what I just said.. oh my... I didn't mean it in that way. I immediately felt my face turn red as I facepalmed myself. 

"I didn't mean it in that way, and you know it!" I said, embarrassed. 

He chuckled to himself, and bit his lip. "I know, Ruby." He said, before shutting the bathroom door. 

Now, I'm left with my own thoughts and red ass cheeks. Why am I so embarrassing? 

Tyler's POV

"Great, now you've made me all wet." Ruby said, wiping off her face.

I couldn't help hearing what she said in a sexual way. I felt my jeans get tighter around my waist, so I turned away from Ruby super fast. She can't see that. I'm so embarrassed. 

"Oh yeah? Already?" I said, smirking at her through the bathroom mirror. She looked at me confused so I raised my eyebrow at her. She doesn't even know what she said, or why I said that back to her. Ugh, embarrassing. I looked back at her and saw her face turn bright red and she facepalmed herself.

"I didn't mean it in that way, and you know it!" She said, embarrassed.

I chuckled to myself, and bit my lip. "I know, Ruby."  I said, before shutting the bathroom door. Now, I gotta get rid of my friend here. I looked down at my boner, which shouldn't even be here right now. Like c'mon, she wasn't even talking sexually to me. She was just talking about my sweat being on her face. But, it didn't matter. Ruby has such an effect on me, she can give me a boner by saying one thing or wearing something or moving a certain way. Even when she just bites her lip when she's thinking, BOING! Boner. I don't know why, but it happens. Then, I have to get rid of it. 

Which is what I'm going to do now, quickly. I looked down at it and unbuttoned my jeans. I pulled them and my underwear down, revealing my package. I sighed and began the process of getting rid of it, thinking of Ruby the whole time...

Three and a half minutes later, I was ready to clean up my mess and leave the room to see Ruby again.