Tear in My Heart (Tyler Joseph x Reader)

chapter 8

Hannah's POV 

We had just arrived at my house and Tyler was walking over to open the car door for me. He always does that, it's so sweet. He opened the door and helped me out, "Thank you kind sir." I said, grasping his arm while we walked into my house. Once we got there, I opened the door and we entered. I don't really know what we are going to do here, but I know I had to make him dinner since I wasn't eating. "Would you like a grilled cheese sandwich, Ty?" I asked him as he sat on my couch and I took my coat off. 

"Yes please, I love your grilled cheeses." He smiled, looking at me. 

"Crap, I left my purse in your car!" I groaned because I just took my jacket off. 

He hopped up quickly, "I got it, stay here." He left with a quick jog. 

This gives me a few seconds to think to myself. What am I doing? Does this even feel right? I know it feels right for him. But I'm not sure yet. It feels kind of... awkward. Because this is my best friend that I'm kissing. Don't get me wrong, the kissing is great but-

"Here you go Rubes. I'll set in on the couch!" Tyler said, walking back in and kissing me on the cheek before sitting back on the couch. "Would you like me to keep you company while you cook? Or I could cook it?"

I chuckled, "I got it. You sit here and get comfortable, I'll be back in a jiffy" I started to walk into the kitchen. 

"Ruby, nobody says 'jiffy' anymore." He joked, looking at me. 

"Well, I do." I said, flipping my hair. I heard him laugh before I walked into the kitchen. I started making his sandwich before picking up in my thoughts again. 

The kissing is great. He's a good kisser. Which I'm honestly surprised by, since he's only had one girlfriend. She was nice. Brooke. But she dumped him, I'm not sure what for. I'm also not sure what all they did together to be honest, I was so caught up in my own relationship. We sort of distanced in our friendship for those couple months. It was senior year of high school. Anyways, I need to figure out if this is truly what I want with Tyler or if I'm just trying this for him, to make him happy. I know that if I ended this right now, he would lose it. He would get super depressed, have a million episodes, maybe even self harm again. Plus, I would lose the best friend I've ever had. But, it's not fair to me if I'm just doing this to make him happy... right? Right. But, am I? I have no clue. 

I sighed, but then I remembered my dream a few nights ago. I had a sex dream about Tyler and I... and I didn't want it to end. I actually wanted it to become a reality. So, that means something. I wouldn't just have that dream about a man that I only see as a friend. I never had that sort of dream before we kissed. 

I think I do want this. I hope I want this. We will see, I guess. 

"This looks really good, thank you bab- Ruby." Tyler said as I set the plate with the sandwich in front of me. I ignored the fact that he almost called me babe, or baby, or something. I don't want to embarrass him afterall.

"No problem, Ty. And thank you for the movie tonight. It was the best movie ever." I said, smiling as I sat next to him. I sat a little closer than I usually do. He sensed my closeness and looked over at me, setting down his sandwich. He was looking me right in the eyes, so I shifted my gaze from his eyes to his lips. He got the hint and leaned in. I leaned in eagerly and our lips met. 

Tyler's POV

I watched as her eyes shifted from my eyes, to my lips. I think that means she wants me to kiss her. So I leaned in and so did she. Our lips met and moved in perfect sync, as usual. Every time I kiss her, it feels like the first time. "I love kissing you," I breathed out into her lips. She nodded and kept kissing me. My tongue grazed her bottom lip and she parted her lips, never allowing our lips to disconnect. She allowed my tongue to explore a little bit before she wrapped her arms around my neck. I placed my hands on her waist and she hopped up, onto my lap. She was straddling me while still kissing me. Oh my gosh, is this happening? Immediately, I felt my friend downstairs get excited. She was on my lap, making out with me, how couldn't he get excited? She leaned back for a second, catching her breath so I kissed her cheeks. I moved from each cheek, quickly pecking her lips in between cheek kisses. This made her giggle, which is music to my ears. 

She moved her knees, which caused her position on my lap to move a little. I felt her butt against my dick and she immediately jolted up off of me. "Oh, I'm, I'm sorry" She said, her face turning red. But it wasn't as red as mine. She moved so she was next to me on the couch again, avoiding eye contact. 

"No, I'm sorry. It just happened, I didn't mean-" I started to say before she put her finger in front of my lips, telling me to be quiet. 

"You don't need to defend it," She said, laughing. I laughed too as the redness in my cheeks went down a little bit. "It just surprised me, that's all." 

"How?" I asked, curious to hear her answer. I also took another bit of my amazing grilled cheese. 

"I don't know, I just wasn't expecting it. I've never thought about me giving you a boner before, I guess?" She said, forming it into a sentence because she was unsure of herself. 

I looked away from her, "Well trust me, you give me boners all the time. You always have." I chuckled. 

She looked at me, "Wait really?" She seemed really surprised. 

"Yeah, since we were like 17 you have. I'm a hormonal boy and you're a gorgeous and sexy girl. What do you expect?" I said, kind of embarrassed. 

"Well, you've never given me a boner" She joked, lightly nudging my arm. 

"So you're saying all this," I gestured to my body, "has never given you a boner? Jeez, you must be a tough one to please." I joked, which made her laugh really hard. She laughed for a few minutes while I ate my sandwich. Then she touched my thigh and looked at me. 

"It seems that you're boner has gone away, should I make it reappear?" She said, in a funny voice. I knew she was kidding, but the way she said it had gotten to me. Of course. I looked down and my boner was back. She looked down too, "Well nevermind, he has returned on his own. Hello little boner," She exclaimed. 

"Little?! What are you trying to say, meanie?" I joked. 

"Well, I don't know if it's little. That's not what I meant. I meant it in like a way-" I cut off her rambling with a kiss to her lips. 

"I knew what you meant, Ruby. I'm just kidding," I said, poking her side and causing her to squeal a little. 

"You're mean, but it's okay. I just won't make you anymore grilled cheeses..." She trailed off, joking. 

"NO YOU CAN'T TAKE AWAY MY GRILLED CHEESES. I'LL BE GOOD I SWEAR!" I fake begged, getting on my knees in front of her. She laughed at me and put her finger under my chin. "What can I do to make it up to you?" I said in a begging voice. 

"Kiss me again?" She said seriously, which caused me to smile and blush. I obliged though. I stood up and towered over her before leaning in. Our lips met once again for this night and I have never been happier. 

She makes me feel so alive. 

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