Change (punk h.s.)

Chapter 34

so I just re-read and edited some of the first chapters of this book and i don't really know if i should laugh or cry. i hate those chapters with passion. and i applause to all of you who have still continued to read this story after those shitty chapters. and thank you for all your support, it means a lot you have no idea. 

ALSO CHANGE HAS OVER 10K READS WHAT HOW 

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH THIS MEANS A LOT EVEN IF SOME OF YOU THINK 10K IS NOT THAT MUCH IT IS VERY SOO MUCH TO ME do you know how excited i was when Change hit 1K i was SUPER excited and now it has 10 times more reads and i just adhdhsjdsakdfle i am literally so happy right now. THANK YOU!

dedication goes to user: rbotteri13

I know you've been reading my story for a while now, and you're always commenting and voting. you are an active reader and i thank you for that. you are awesome. love you xx

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I just thought Look After You by The Fray fits this chapter... kinda.... maybe..... not idk haha...

HARRY'S POV

I can't believe this.

I didn't think she would actually let me kiss her or that she would kiss back. I didn't think she'd want to see me ever again. I didn't think she would... stay with me but here I am, sitting with her on this couch. I didn't think she would forgive me, which she hasn't actually done yet but I hope she will soon.

"So it kind of started when I was looking for you, but she catched up with me, telling me you are going to be fine, that she saw you which was stupid for me to believe. She said you were going to Niall's and that is exactly what I thought. Then we went in that bar and started to talk and laugh and memorise all the great times we had together. We had been drinking a lot and one thing left to another and we were kissing. I took her here, in this apartment and.... we slept together", I tell her, she has crossed her arms, she's looking to the other way, I can't see her face. I place my hand on her thigh. She turns her head slowly, her gaze finds mine and her eyes soften slightly.

"Did you really have to sleep with her?", she asks, her tone is sounding a bit annoyed but I don't blame her. I am still surprised that she actually is willing to listen to me. After the fucked up thing I did. 

"I haven't had sex in months! You don't understand how it feels since you're a fucking virgin", I shrug and her lips apart a little. "Wow, thanks", she scoffs. I start stroking her thigh slightly, as if I apologize for saying that. I just can't keep my damn mouth shut. She stays quiet, I know she's a little hurt but I am happy that she is still staying. God knows what I would have done if it was the other way around. "So anyway, we slept together. I was drunk and if it helps at all I was picturing you the whole time", I say and she snaps her head towards me, her bewildered face is priceless, I am trying so hard not to laugh. 

"That's disgusting", she says as a frown covers her beautiful face. I feel my eyebrows furrowing. "What? Sex?", I ask, she slightly shakes her head. "No, that you're picturing me when you are... doing it with another woman", she says and disgust now covers her face. I still think it is pretty damn adorable how she can't say the word "sex" aloud. I would say that she is innocent but I don't really find her as such an innocent girl. The girl has taken drugs a lot in these past few months. I don't think an innocent person does something like that.

"What happened then?"

"I regret it, Sydney. I want you to know that", I say to her before I tell her what happened next. She nods but she doesn't seem convinced. "So I left to look for you, I left Steph to our apartment, hoping she would leave while I was gone. I went to Niall's at first but you weren't there..."