Change (punk h.s.)

Chapter 57

HARRY'S POV

She said it. She said it. The thing I have been doubting for months.

She said it. She fucking said it.

I heard wrong I must have heard wrong.

She was just enjoying the moment, didn't think it through. She didn't mean it.

Or did she?

I feel her stir in her sleep slightly and I pull her closer to me, she relaxes right away.

I can't believe we did this. And as if this is going to make things easier for us. Maybe for her, she seemed pretty convinced about that. To me, things will get a lot worse. Especially now that she said those three words, four actually.

"I love you too", they fell so naturally from her slightly swollen lips. But she couldn't have meant it. Why would she say it when we had just promised each other that will be the last time ever for us.

Last time. Ever. This isn't the last time, it can't be.

I feel her move again and this time she opens her eyes just enough to look at me. "Morning", she mumbles and snuggles a little closer to me, yawning.

"Morning", I say and look down at her. "How did you sleep?"

"Great", she answers shortly and smiles.

"Good. Well I'm going to take a shower, just stay here and rest a little"

She just hums in agreement and rolls on her stomach to the middle of the bed, spreading her arms and legs. She looks absolutely ridiculous and I can't help but chuckle at the sight in front of me. I've missed this so much and I will miss it even more after this.

***

As I come back to my bedroom after the shower to put on some clothes I see her still in bed, wearing my big shirt and her body almost sideways on the bed, she can never stay still in the morning.

"Come on, sleepy head", I walk up to the bed and shake her shoulders a little. "Niall might be wondering where you are"

She lets out a groan and rolls over to her back again and slowly sits up. "Are you kicking me out?", she smiles while rubbing her eyes.

"I'd never kick you out", I tell her, really meaning it. I'd rather kick myself out of my own apartment. She knows I mean it. "Go take a shower I'll make some breakfast"

"Actually", she says before I can turn to the door. "I'm supposed to leave home soon. I don't think I have time for both", she smiles sadly. "I'd love to, but I have to take a raincheck on the breakfast"

I nod, looking down at the ground in disappointment. I wished to spend more time with her but clearly I can't. She's leaving home again. To another city.

"Yes, of course. Some other time then", I say and leave the room.

***

"So...", Sydney sighs as she steps out of the door.

"So...", I repeat.

Sydney glances down at the ground but quickly looks up again. "It was really nice seeing you again", she tells me and opens her arms, stepping closer to me.

I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her as close to me as possible. "It really was", I mutter against her hair. We stay still for a while, just holding each other. And as we pull away, she kisses my cheek and before I pull away completely she's already kissing my lips. I pull away, little shocked by her actions. She looks up at me with hopeful eyes. I shake my head. "Sydney we promised we wouldn't", before I can continue she's already kissing me again.