Change (punk h.s.)

Chapter 49

sorry it took me so long to post another chapter. i have a reason for that, few actually and the first one is school, yes school started again and i'm really stressed bc of it. the second reason is writer's block. i've just had trouble continuing this story and yeah so sorry about that.

i'll let you read the chapter now. xx

I hear the door opening and I quickly close my eyes, pretend to be asleep. I feel the mattress moving under me and I immediately know it's Harry. He lies down behind me and wraps his arm around me and pulls me closer, I wish I could move away, but I am "asleep". "Sydney?", he whispers in my ear. He seems to wait for my reply, hoping I would be awake. "I know your upset about something, I don't know what it is. I just wish you would talk to me about it. I hate it when you keep things from me.", he continues. He brings his hand to my cheek and caresses softly. "I love you, I hope you remember that", He tells me and kisses my cheek before he lies back down. I feel a tear slip down my cheek, but gladly he doesn't notice. I really need to talk to him in the morning.

Two, three or four hours later, I have no idea really, I lost the track of time, Harry still has his arm around me. He's snoring slightly also. He fell asleep quicker than I thought he would. I'm glad he did though, I had some time to think about all this. He didn't cheat on me, did he? He swore it won't happen after the Steph incident. I must have understood the text wrong.

I decide to go get a cup of tea since I can't sleep. I slip under Harry's arm and stand up. As I am turning the door knob I hear a buzzing sound, Harry's phone. I turn around, hesitating if I should check what it is. I know it is wrong, but I decide to walk over to the night stand and take the phone in my hand. After that text I can't help but be suspicious. Who wouldn't be?

I feel my eyes watering again as I see the text is from Fiona, but that's not what hurts, it is what the text says.

*I still feel your touch on my body, I still feel how you kept me down by my hips while you pounded me all night. That night  haunts me, in a good way.*

It's true. He cheated on me. That bastard cheated on me even though he always said he wouldn't. And after what happened when we were in the States.

"It hurt because it felt like you thought I was unfaithful"

And I apologized after that! I shouldn't have. I was right. And now I hate that Fiona girl even more than I already did.

He hasn't changed, he's still that manwhore everyone warned me about. I thought I could make him settle down. With me. What was I thinking?

I gather all my things in my bag and get my phone from the charger. I am about to put the charger in my pocket until I remember it's Harry's. I just leave it and go downstairs only to see the lights turned on in the living room. I see mum and Zack sitting on the couch. "Hey, what's going on?", I ask and they turn their heads towards me.

"Are you leaving? This time in the morning?", My mother asks, confusion clear in her voice, and on her face. Zack frowns.

"Yeah, I am. Bye, happy New Year", I mutter and walk towards the front door. 

"What abut Harry?", I hear them call for me but I shrug it off and head straight outside. As I step out of the house the cold wind causes my hair to blow everywhere. I shiver at the coldness and start walking straight towards the train station. I grab my phone from my pocket and dial Niall's number.

The call goes straight to voice mail. I let out a long sigh and scroll down my contacts. I stop at Kenneth's name. I hesitate to press call. I know Kenneth sort of likes me, he said so himself a while ago. So that's why I told him we shouldn't see each other anymore, since he is also Harry's half brother. I like Kenneth, but as a friend. So I start scrolling again only to stop at Liam's name.