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days passed, and it was finally dally's funeral. mostly all greaser and his friends went. it was a gloomy day like all funerals are. i can't handle all this pain.
"we are here for dallas winston's funeral..." i looked at everyone, i don't remember seeing these people. they were sad obviously, but i felt like the world is fake and so is everyone.
"hey i'm sorry bout your loss." a greaser told me when the funeral was finished. "gotta cigarette?" i asked him. "since when you smoke?" he told me taking out his packet of cigarettes.
"since i discovered love." i told him lighting up the cigarette and left. i stayed at the graveyard for a while, there was roses on his coffin. i was waiting for my brothers and his gang to leave me alone for a while. "i still don't get you dally. what do you mean that johnny and i are special?" i said as a tear went rolling down my face.
"excuse me miss, we have to put him in the ground now." another tear went down as i walked away. i needed a hug, i threw away my cigarette and headed home. mostly everyone that was at the funeral was at home.
i took my box, opened it, and got the poem.
i feel so torn, my heart is hurting, i want it to be burning. i used to be lovely, but now i feel lonely. love, is curiosity and stupidity. that's why i'm afraid. put me in the ground we're i'm really supposed to be. losing my head, trying to find paradise. you're gone and i'm done, let me just run. i feel like drowning, there's to much partying. the boy i love is gone, and i'll never stop loving him. these feelings are hurt, my heart is glass, and mind of stone.
"can i come in?" johnny said opening the door with a cigarette in his mouth, I nodded softly. he sat down next me and gave me his cigarette. "why is this happening?" i asked johnny as smoke came out my mouth.
johnny looked me then his hands. "i don't know sweets." he said quietly then hugging me when he saw another tear run down my face.
my tears were going right through johnny shirt but he didn't care, our heads then turned when we heard a loud crash outside. we both went into the living room to see what happened.
"what happened?" i yelled wiping my tears. "steve?" soda said going outside, we then followed. we looked and it was a car, blue mustang, and it was crashed. shit. "i had too! they killed dally!" steve said, his voice cracked and his eyes were puffy.
"i mean his not wrong." i said. everyone turned to me, everything was going around. i was about to fall when johnny grabbed me. "rubi?" soda said as darry was coming to hug me.
"mom, dad, then dally!" i cried on darry's chest. i never went to my parents funeral, and it hurt me. when the letter came that my parents died. i couldn't handle myself, i harmed myself, ran away, i stayed with the lady though cause i knew i wasn't ready yet.
i let go of darry and ran inside. i looked everywhere in the restroom. i found the can of pills, "rubi?" i heard a familiar voice say, i tried opening the can but it was to late. "rubi!" pony said entering the bathroom, i had dropped all the pills and hugged ponyboy.
he didn't say anything next, just hugged me. i lost dally. i was supposed to die not him, but he died because he saved me!
days passed. i haven't gone to school. i wrote a song. i'm afraid to sing it though.
our time is up. your eyes are shut, i won't get to tell you what i needed you to know. it's dark enough, the moonlight doesn't show. and all my love can never bring you home. there's no more stars to find and i'm to far behind. and i'd love to let you go, i'd love to let you go. you're always on my mind, i called a thousand times, and i have to let you go, but i love you more and more than you could know. i sat alone, waiting you to reply. was carried home, when i started to cry, i should've known, i should've stayed. i only hope, i would've had more time. there's no more stars to find, and i'm to far behind. and i'd love to let you go, i'd love to let you go. you're always on my mind. when i called a thousand times. and i have to let you go, but i love you more and more than you could ever know. we're both to young to live and die this way. a sunny springtime day with some much left to stay, not 19. the day they want to pay. the day you couldn't stay, you'd made me wanna pray, but i think god's fake. there's no more stars to find, and i'm to far behind. and i'd love to let you go, i'd love to let you go. you're always on my mind, when i called a thousand times. but i have to let you go, but i love you more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more than you will ever know. you will ever know, you'll never know.
dally...i'll never forget you. i know you kept a secret from me but i'm not mad. even when you tell me to be with johnny you'll be my first love, kiss, and boyfriend. i love you, more than ever. i wish you could know that.
AUTHOR
hey hope you like this chapter and the story ofc. 6.18.18 is a beautiful and sad song billie made bout xxx.i just changed a bit😔👊🏼
