Change (Harry Styles)

love so strong, then you moved on - chapter 42

Love so strong, then you moved on. – chapter forty-two.

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*Cassie*

Harrys choice of song that he sang to me that night has been playing in my head for the past week. I haven’t questioned him about it, but when he sang it to me, he seemed so sure of it, like the song was made for him to sing to me that night, it seemed as if he actually meant every word of it.

What if he did mean it? What if that was his way of saying, that even after all these years, he still loves me? No, he couldn’t still love me. He is Harry Styles for goodness sake, I am only a regular girl from London, why would he still love me?

“Seriously girl, you need to stop drifting off to your own world” Ally shouts in my face, bringing me back to reality. I guess I do go into my ‘own world’ a lot of the time. It’s better there. I don’t have to learn new dances everyday – not that I don’t love my job – I don’t have children to look after, as much as I love my girls. And I don’t have Harry. Being on tour with the boys again, has driven me insane. One minute I hate him, and the next, I want to kiss him. I don’t know what is wrong with me, the only I do know, it that my feelings for him are coming back – quicker and stronger than before.

“Cass?” A male voice, recognised as the one and only Louis Tomlinson, brings me out of my thoughts this time. Woah, I need to stop doing that so often.

“Why are you girls dancing? We don’t have a show tonight do we?” Niall asks, confusion written all over his pretty little face.

“Ella made us” Roxie grits through her clenched teeth.

“It’s called practising.” Ella snaps. Romly rolls her eyes at Ella.

“Well Bella-“

“Ella” Ella snaps at Harry.

“I don’t care. Ella, I’m sorry to say that I have to take one of your precious dancers off you.” Harry says, coming over to me. “Cassie, wanna do something tonight?”

Do something, with Harry? Um, Cassie – no.

“She’s practising” Ella says matter-of-factly.

“No, Ella, I’m going out with Harry” I smile gladly at her. Honestly, I’m not sure I want to go out with harry later, but I wanna rub something in Ella’s face, so this is my opportunity.

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“You look so pretty” Ally gushes, playing with a piece of my hair.

“Yeah, Harry is one lucky man” Roxie says, adding a wink on the end.

“Guys, I’m not with Harry, I don’t even like him like that anymore” I lie. That, was a total lie, truth is, I am crazy about Harry.

“yeah, whatever you say” Roxie says sarcastically.

I’m actually really nervous about going out with Harry tonight. I don’t know where we are going, or what  he has planned, which reminds me of our past relationship, which I don’t honestly want to back to, because then I have to watch him leave all the time, and I have Poppy now, and I don’t want her to get hurt.

“Just go out to Harry now. Can’t keep him waiting” This time, it’s me who rolls my eyes at my best friends. I do as I am told though, and leave the bunk room to enter the main lounge. And can I just mention how hard it is to get ready in a tour bus, of which the person you are going out with is in the same bus – it’s really hard as the girls didn’t want Harry to see me until ‘they are finished with me’