Change (Harry Styles)

I'm sorry.. (chapter29)

I'm sorry.. – Chapter 29.

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“Cassie?” Zayn’s soft voice brings me out of my thoughts which I have been stuck in now for probably ten minutes now and my head is just as confused as it was to start with.

“huh?” finally coming back into reality and slowly but surely, feeling the situation place itself back onto my shoulders. You know that saying, it’s like the weight of the worlds on your shoulders? Yeah that’s what I feel like now.

“Are you agreeing to this or not?”

“She doesn’t have an option Paul” I hear Emily whisper to the man sitting beside her who is looking at me expectantly and completely ignoring the words of the brown haired women.

“Suppose I’ll have to” I whisper, but it was loud and clear for Emily.

“Perfect” She shrieks, standing up out of her seat and hugging her notebook close to her chest, her brown curls bouncing with her actions, and her green eyes twinkling with excitement and satisfaction.

“Marty” Paul shouts to the bus driver (A.N – I don’t know what one direction’s bus driver is and this was, strangely, the first name that came to mind haha) “Pull over”

I feel the bus come to a halt and Emily, Jack, Zack and Rian all climb out of the bus one behind the other without another word, although it’s not like they actually said anything to help mine and Alex’s case in there. Paul calls out a “See you for sound check tomorrow” before following the other four out the door. Alex starts to come over to me, he crouches down in front of my and lightly places his big hands on my knees.

“You didn’t have t-“

“I didn’t have a choice Alex” I say before he can even get a chance to finish his previous sentence.

He sighs, “It’ll be okay Cassie” And with that last bit said, he stands and exits the bus just like the others and we begin to move towards where we are meant to be again, by this rate I’m guessing we will be a little late to the arena, but it’s sound check all day until half five so I don’t think anybody really cares if we are half an hour late or so.. I know I don’t.

As soon as the door bangs shut, I can’t get it in myself to hold up for another even five minutes, so right there and then, I burst out in tears. I don’t even think this is a situation worth crying over, I just.. I know Harry doesn’t want this to happen, and that he is annoyed and angry, which makes me annoyed and angry at myself for agreeing to do it, which is pretty much just the same as agreeing to hurt Harry. – and Sophia and Olivia are going to be more than confused, watching me with Harry, and now Alex and I’m sure once on the bus, Harry again.. ugh, management.

“Sssh, Cassie.. It’s going to be alright” Zayn coo’s me whilst wrapping his arms around me in a comforting side hug.

“I.. I just don’t want t..to hurt him” I mumble between sniffs.

“You’re not hurting him Cassie, just.. go talk to him?” Louis suggest as he places himself on the cream sofa beside me.

“I will tomorrow, I just wanna go to be now” I say while untangling Zayn’s arms from my body, instantly feeling the coldness from not having them there for all of 30 seconds.

“Thank you.. for helping me there”

“We hardly helped much” Niall chuckles.

“you still tried, which means a lot to me” I smile at them all in turn, which they return back at me, and Louis being Louis, adds a wink along with a huge grin, only Louis.

We say our goodnights and I leave them to chat amongst themselves, their voices disappearing as I quietly close the door, hoping not to wake the sleeping twins whose bed is the one right at the door.

It wasn’t until I turn around that I realise that me and Harry actually share a bunk, which should be pretty awkward since he is angry and not on basic speaking terms with me right at the moment, which to be honest, right now could be good as we both need some time to think and just calm down from what happened only fifteen minutes ago or so. I don’t know if I should even talk to him now, I wouldn’t know what to say, ‘um, yeah I’m going to fake date someone else and you just have to watch your girlfriend be ‘in love’ with someone else whether you like it or not.’ Somehow  don’t think that would go down to well.

We just stare at each other, our eyes locked with one another’s, no movement, no sound except for the air of our breaths.

“Har-“ I start, but even with only half of his name out of my mouth he cuts me off.

“Don’t, Cassie, Okay? You don’t have to say anything, I heard the conversation..”

Shit! He did?

“You did?” I swallow the lump in my throat along with the urge to break down in tears right there again, but then I would seem weak and I don’t want to seem like that.

“Yeah.. and I know there’s nothing you could have done. Management forced it on you two and they always get what they want.” He stops and jumps down the steps of our bunk and walks over to me, stopping so there is only a little bit of space between us.

“I’m sorry” I whisper, and he eagerly shakes his head at me.

“You don’t have anything to be sorry for. I’m the one who flipped out in front of you and I was the one who wasn’t out there helping his girlfriend. So, I’m sorry, not you. I was also mad at management, not you, so don’t even this I was or am for that matter. I trust you Cassie, and as long as I know that you don’t like him that way, then I’m okay with you doing this...”

“Harry, don’t be stupid, you know I don’t like him like that, you shouldn’t even have to question that.”

“I know, I just needed to hear you say it” He chuckles slightly, now snaking his arms around my waist and closing any space that was once between our bodies.

“You’re an idiot you know that?” I laugh, locking my fingers together behind his neck.

“I know.. I love you, so much Cassie” He breathes, his lips already brushing lightly against mine.

“I love you too” And with that sentence out, he captures my lips in the most perfect kiss out of our relationship.

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I’m really tired guys.

It’s half one here.. So I hope you notice I miss my sleep for you lovely readers of mine.

I do appreciate you all reading this though, you have no idea.

I LOVE YOU BRATS.<3

-Sophie.