Change (Harry Styles)

Poppy Anne Styles - Chapter 40

Poppy Anne Styles – Chapter forty.

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Harry’s Pov

What is love?

Is it something that last a month? A year? Forever? Can you fall in and out of love? Forget that one person like they meant nothing to you? Can you love someone who you just lay eyes on? Or can you love somebody who you just don’t quite know anymore?

Cassie has changed –appearance wise, her personality has stuck with her. Her long blonde hair is now roughly two inches shorter with tints of brown. Her cheekbones are more obvious, and she has lost a hell of a lot of weight, and she wasn’t even the least bit fat before/

Before she practised her dance earlier on today, I saw her talk to Niall, a bright smile on her face and a laugh on her lips.

Before she practised her dance earlier on today, I saw her talk to Niall, a bright smile on her face and a laugh on her lips. I felt a pang of jealously in me. But why should I be jealous? There is nothing going on with them, and I know this cause Niall has Eden. Plus, I don’t even like Cassie like that anymore.

Or so I tell myself...

“Haz, you alright?” Louis’ voice snaps me out of my thoughts.

“Yeah, fine. I’m just gonna lye down for a bit.” I say, and he nods at me. I get up out of my seat on the sofa and make my way into the bunk room. I lay down on the bunk I once shared with Cassie. I close my eyes, but Niall’s voice keeps me from falling asleep.

“You have to tell him Cassie,” He says, obviously talking to Cassie. Tell who what? And why does Niall know?

The is a short pause and I hear here sigh.

“I know Niall. But it’s not like I can go up to him and be like, ‘Hey Harry, how are you? Yeah we have a child together. Her names Poppy’ now can I?”

What? Me, and Cassie? Have a kid? No, scrap that, I have a kid?

I snap my head to look at Poppy, who is on the bunk across from me. I am so stupid. How could I not have noticed this before? I mean, even when she’s sleeping you can see the resemblance, apart from the nose, she has Cassie’s nose.

Ugh.

I jump out of my bunk and open the door to the back lounge. Niall and Cassie sit on the seats, Cassie’s back facing me.

“I have a child?” I manage to choke out.

Cassie’s head whips around to look at me, her eyes wide and lips parted in surprisement.

“Harry I-“

“And you knew?!” I cut her off, pointing at Niall, who knew all this time, for four years that I had a child, and didn’t bother to mention it. I throw my hands up in exasperation. “I can’t even look at you two.”

I turn on my heel and make my way to the main part of the bus, seeing the other girls, Liam and Zayn heading out the door.

“Pit stop” Louis informs me, perfect timing I think.

“Be back in half an hour” I hear him call after me as I stop away.

Cassie’s Pov

“Niall what do I do?” I ask in a panic.

“Do after him!” He shouts at me. Right, and say what? “tell him you were scared” he says, as if he is able to read my mind.

 I nod and race into the main lounge, only finding Louis.

“Where’s harry?” I ask him.

“Went out –“

“Look after Poppy please” I rush, already down the steps of the bus. I thought I was going to have to actually look for him, but you couldn’t miss the brown mop of hair sitting on a grass bank in the distance, not too far, not too close.

I approach him and sit down beside him. Neither of us say anything for at least five minutes, we just silently stare in front of us.

“Don’t be mad at Niall” I say, “I made him not tell you.” Harry doesn’t reply to this, just continues to stare.

“When you left,” I start. “I didn’t know what to do. It was like my whole worlds was gone and everything was in slow motion. I was going to tell you the night I found out, but when I saw you on camera, the smile on your face, I just couldn’t ruin it. I wanted to give you a bit more of a life before you had to grow up and take on such a big responsibility. And then things changed.” I pause, looking at him to make sure he is even listening to me, and even though he is still staring ahead, I can tell he is listening to every word.

“you stopped skyping me, stopped calling me, and eventually, you stopped texting me too. And then you ended it, us. I was trying to protect my-our baby. I didn’t want her to have to grow through the loss and hurt of her daddy, just like I did. And I know I should have told you, and you don’t know how sorry I am for not telling you, but.. I just didn’t want her to watch her Dad leave.”

Again, there is a silence, but I can tell that my words are processing in Harry’s head.

“Does she have a middle name?”

I laugh lightly thinking of my daughters full name. “Anne”

Harry turns to look at me with watery eyes, “My mum?”

I nod, “Poppy Anne Styles.”

his smile widens at her name, but I can tell that there is something else on his mind. “What is it?”

“Can I be part of her life now? Like, as her Dad?”

“Harry,” I laugh. “You don’t even have to ask that. Of course you can”

“Good,” Silence spreads among us once again, but this time it is Harry who speaks up first.

“And, can we go back? I mean, to being friends, see where it takes us?”

I know what he is thinking; he wants to see if we can fall back into our relationship. But things aren’t that easy to fix, and I have Tyler now. But I’ll not tell Harry that yet, things are actually looking up now.

“I’d like that” I say. Harry smiles at me and takes my hand, standing up. I follow suit and he laces his fingers with mine. I don’t protest, because I actually feel safe when I am with Harry. And although I am with Tyler, he has never made me feel the things Harry has, but I guess it’s always like that with your first love, right?

We enter the bus, where Louis is on the floor playing with Poppy. I smile at the scene. Poppy notices us, and stands up, laughing as she comes over to us.

“Daddy?” She asks, pointing to Harry, how does she even know this?

I open my mouth to protest, but Harry bends down and picks her up, placing a soft kiss on her head and answering her question for me.

“Yeah, I’m your daddy baby”

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Idk I think Harry will be a good dad. Idk.

And I’m not really sure where I a going with this story now, and my next few weeks are jam-packed busy, so uploads are gonna be mega slow, sorry guys.

I love you, all, brats.<3

-Sophie.