Change (Harry Styles)

pick a name (chapter11)

“Just.. Just seeing the coffin was hard enough” I say with no emotion as a single tear slips down my natural cheek layer of skin.

“Hey I know.. sssh!” Harry coo’s me as he cradles my body in his arms as if I am a precious diamond that will break at a rough force towards it. That’s one of the things I like about Harry; he knows when he needs to be serious and supportive, but still have a fun and wild side.

“I’m sorry I wasn’t here” He whispers into my hair, his hand lightly running through the tangles in it.

“Don’t even go there” I say sternly, sitting up to look at his face that is currently flooding with concern and regret. “You have a life without me”

“But that’s the thing. I don’t want to have a life without you Cassie” He whispers, looking deeply into my eyes as if searching for any emotion that my body is holding right now.

“umm, Cassie, me and your mum are going back to work today. Will you be okay with the girls?” My father says awkwardly as he takes in the position that Harry and I are currently sitting in; I’m sitting on his knee facing him with each one of my legs at either side of his body, my hands draped around his neck and his hand sitting firmly on my thighs.

“Sure” I sigh, just wanting to go to bed and disappear from this whole situation that my family and I have been thrown into. For the week since Madison’s death, the week that Harry hasn’t been here, Eden and I have not left my room; stuffing our faces with sugary foods and watching movies all day. She even stayed here the first two nights with me. Helping me out with the twins since my father was planning the funeral and my mother was just in no state to look after them.

My mother told them, in the best and simplest from possible for them to understand. I don’t think they quite got that she wasn’t come back, but they knew she was gone, which for now is better than nothing I guess.

My father nods and leaves the room. I sigh, again, leaning my forehead against Harrys.

“Go get some sleep, I’ll watch them” harry says.

“Harry I can’t ask yo-“


“You’re not asking, I’m offering” He cuts me off, laughing as he scrambles to his feet and helps me get up too. “Plus, I’m a pro with kids” He teases, and a wink at the end.

I roll my eyes and give a hug, “I’m sure you are.. Thank you” I mummer against his chest.

“Go” he chuckles, and I leave the room he was sleeping in at the time that him and the boys stayed here. How I wish I could go back to then and never leave it. I found myself in my own room and climbed into my bed, drifting off into a much need sleep.

 

harry.

“okaaaay Girls” I sung, walking into the room to find a very bored set of twins. “What do you wanna do?” I ask, sitting down beside Sophia who automatically stood behind me on the sofa and started playing with my hair.