Skating Back Home // Michael Clifford.

5.

There are two types of waiting. There’s the the waiting you do for something you know is coming, sooner or later—like waiting for the 6:28 train, or the school bus, or a party where a certain handsome boy might be. And then there’s the waiting for something you don’t know is coming. You don’t even know what it is exactly, but you’re hoping for it. You’re imagining it and living your life for it. That’s the kind of waiting that makes a fist in your heart.

I did not know what I was waiting for, of course I was waiting to see what future has in store for me and Michael but after the hectic week between us, where we were constantly arguing, I did not know what to expect. I knew we were kind of falling apart because of college, but I just hoped I was wrong and I was overthinking about everything.

Sunday was good. We made love. We spent time together. We played video games and football. He played some new songs that they will have in their Somewhere New EP to me. We did everything together. It made me feel so much better after the entire long week of college and new people.

Monday, we were back in college, in Literature lecture. Calum was hitting on girls now and then and he was frustrated that Bianca wasn't really giving him attention. They had started flirting but she was obviously playing hard to get or probably she just wasn't interested in Calum. He was irritated after the break time and he yelling at everyone.

"I hate when girls foreplay! Like, just let me get in you, already!" he snapped.

"What's foreplay?" I asked. I knew it was something sexual as his statement was obviously absurd but I did not know what it exactly was.

"What?" Ashley laughed, "You don't know what that is?"

"Obviously, their sex life sucks anyway," Tristan blurted.

Tristan had started hanging out with us only because Ashley liked him, and I hated both of them but my opinion did not matter because Calum liked Ashley. 

"Excuse me?" Michael spoke up, "She's just not familiar with that term, its got nothing to do with our sex life,"

"Yeah, well," Calum said, "You need to educate her a bit on that," 

"I'm sorry for not knowing that, jeez," I said, "Whatever. Who do you want to get into?"

"Bianca!" Calum yelled, "Stop asking me stupid questions!"

Michael had become really stiff again,  I was aware that he did not like Calum's tone of talking to me but I wasn't aware that he was going to yell at me for it.

Just when we got home, he started throwing tantrums on me.

"Why did you have to say it?" he asked.

"I did not know they would make fun of us," I said.

"I wish you weren't so pathetic," he replied, flustered.

"Excuse me?" 

"Well, aren't you so pathetic? Like, you know nothing! It gets so annoying to even be around you sometimes,"

"Wow, forgive me because I did not know what foreplay was!"

"Well, its okay if you did not know it but you didn't have to just mention it out there so that people can get a chance to say something about us!" he yelled.

"Why are you getting so angry about one stupid thing?" I asked.

"I don't know! Sticking around you sometimes can be really embarrassing," he muttered and shut the door of his room on my face.

He was totally overreacting, I knew that. But still, I couldn't help and so I just blamed myself for it. I went back to my place but I was still really upset about having him be so embarrassed because of me, it sucked for me.