Warning: this may be triggering.
(Ashton's POV)
Just one. Just one cut. Come on Ashton.
I paced in the bathroom. I had stopped for a long time. For so long. And now, I felt like I had to. But I didn't want to. I wanted to be strong.
I had found a new blade, I was afraid to use it. It's addicting, and I only wanted relief this one time. Just this once.
I sat down on the closed toilet seat. I closed my eyes as I reached for the blade.
I placed it to my skin, and just like that, I had done it again.
It's been happening for about three weeks. It was my relief again, instead of what it has been for a while. Whenever I needed help, I talked to fans, or the other guys. But that whole thing went down the drain.
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I walked down the street in London, because I had to get out of the hotel for a little while.
A girl about 15 years old, ran up to me. "Hi, ohmygod, I'm a huge fan, Ashton!"
I smiled as she hugged me.
When she pulled back, she eyed my bracelets. "Ash, why are you wearing so many?"
"I'm hiding scars again."
"Ash, please don't. You're the reason I stopped. You have so many of us. You have Luke, Michael, and Calum. You mean the world to all of us." She held my hand. "It's okay."
I sighed. "I've been told that before... I just. I don't really know anymore."
"Ash?" I looked in her eyes. She looked upset. "I'm here for you."
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A/n: hey! New fanfiction! This one is lashton, and lashton makes me feel like I can't function correctly, so this'll be fun. :)
Anyway, hope you enjoy this one! Bye!
~Abby
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