Red and Blue

chapter 11

My dull eyes look up at the ceiling. I see the dust particles dance around in the morning light. I hear the blankets rustle around as I sit up.

I touch my face, I feel bags under my eyes. I barely slept. Ah, who am I kidding, I didn't sleep at all last night.

The only thing I can think about is my last life. I close my eyes, and take deep breath. I get ready... and slap myself hard on the cheek.

" come on, its not time to wallow in self pity. " I say to myself. I laugh out loud, it sounds hollow even to me.

Even though there's know one here, I put on my mask as a defense mechanism, if that's away to describe it.
The only thing that bugs me, is you can tell it's a lie with these dull lifeless eyes. I can lie with my voice and body language, but not with these eyes.

I get up off my gray bed. My feet touch the soft warm grass on the ground. I looked into it, and it seems it just has a spell on it to keep it green. It's even insulated somehow with whatever magic the gods used.

I walk over grabbing a white pair of shorts, also a plain black shirt. I don't care about the scars on me at the moment, no one's here anyway.

I walk to the so called dinning room\kitchen. I sit on one of the chairs near the table.

I end up finishing the strawberry drink coconut thing. I decide I'll pick more later. I'm already full since I'm not used to eating a lot, even in my old body.

I rest my head on the table. The table has an amber looking color, it's designed with flower patterns and symbols. It waxed, and it's very smooth.

I sigh to myself. I straighten myself up. I pat my cheeks, one still stinging. I think about my cheek. Ever since I was young in my old body, I had an bad habit of slapping myself if I wanted to stop crying or wrap myself together.

I remember how I hold my emotions in, I'd dig my nails into my palms or neck if I was angry, or thought something I did was bad. I still have both habits. It makes me feel like I have some control of my life. Even if some.

I can't explain it. I was never fond of pain, but if I felt over whelmed it let me feel like I had some control of that makes since.

One time when I was in gym class, we ran and ran not stopping because other guys were messing around.
I was tired, my legs felt like bricks. I couldn't do anything... I had no control. I'm a kid, still am. I couldn't do anything, I was useless. I felt anger, panic, sadness, I felt like I was going to have a panic attack.

So I took my nails and scraped hard on my neck. I felt some blood. It ended up leaving a scar. No one noticed since my hair was a little long covering my neck in the back.

I touch my neck. I was right, my body emerged with this one, I look quite a bit like my old self. There's a few scars from my other body I observed. I even feel my old scar on the back of my neck. Somehow I feel amused.

I don't know why. I silently laugh to myself. "I'm a mess aren't I." I say to myself.  I feel a tear prick my eye, but don't let it fall.

I pick my head and look at the stone ceiling. I Breath in and out try to calm myself down. Other than the sunlight streaming in through the windows there's no light. I grumble getting off the table and turn on the magic stone\light.

I put it on dimly not wanting it to be so bright at the moment.

I'm bored at the moment and look at this room. There's the stone walls, but it looks really nice with the blue stones. There's the table and chairs, more in the corner. There's six chairs. They have a similar look to the table.

Other than that, there's some counters installed in the walls. It looks a little like a gray granite. It blends into the wall, so it looks kinda like a really shiny stone in a way. There's the cooler thing too near one of the walls.

I decide to stop procrastinating and head outside to practice magic.

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After practicing my magic for awhile I start getting tired. I put in the factor that I didn't sleep at all.

My magic in my opinion is coming out great so far. I'm getting way better at fire. I'm able to make a campfire way faster and it becomes much bigger.

My water element is able to purify things way easier and quicker now. My earth attribute is still needs some work, though I'm able to make small steps. Air is coming along, I'm able to make mini tornados, there only a few inches big though. It helps with drying clothes though.

I try my wings next, I'm able to get them out faster now. I try flapping them around. I'm able to flap them faster. I jump trying to see if I can fly. I end up staying in the air for three seconds, It's a start but it will do.

I feel exhausted. I look up at the sky. It's probably around two or three, give or take. I decide to take a nap then take more fruits from the lake.

I head into my house turning off all my lights. I change into clean shirt and leggings, and by pure exhaustion fall asleep.

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Authors note. IMPORTANT MUST READ.

Soooo, I'm sorry I won't be able to update next week. Let me explain. I'm a minor, meaning I can't live alone. My parents are divorced so I switch houses each week. This week was different because of the stupid schedule. I wish I could upload there, but I'd be dead if I bring my device there. Also they'd be mad if they found out I made a story in the first place. They would be mad if they knew I had wattpad too because there's a lot of inappropriate stuff (not that I care). Sooo can't do anything about this I'm sorry.

See you next week. Byeeee 😁😁