Phase 42
Right after the entombment, Primiel didn't bother coming near his father and brothers. I was surprised when he gripped on my hand tight and we walk away from the place, mabilis niyang tinanggal ang necktie na tila nasasakal siya noon sanhi ng pamumula ng kanyang mukha dahil sa pigil na emosyon. Hanggang sa marating at makasakay kami sa kanyang sasakyan ay wala siyang salitang binanggit, he's teary eyed but never had his tears down again.
Hindi ko pa inaasahan ang aming biyahe pabalik ng Makati, kahit na antok at pagod ang mga mata ko ay hindi ako nakatulog sa biyahe. Nanatili akong gising at panay ang pagkausap kay Primiel na hindi niya sinasagot ng salita, tango at iling lang kaya hindi ko na sinubukan. Primiel is a total Mama's boy, his love for his mother is ethereal and beautiful. I could tell it by just looking in his eyes, lalo na noong huling pagsasama nila sa bahay nila Ametrine? God, that was beyond my exception of a Mama's boy love.
Sobrang nalulungkot at nadudurog ako sa biglaang pagkawala ni Mrs. Eldora Villareal. Nagagalit din ako sa kung sino man ang nasa likod noon, wala pa akong patunay na may gumawa at sumadya noon pero kung titingnan si Primiel ay iyon ang nakikita kong suspetsa sa mga mata niya. He's blaming himself why the accident happened, telling that he's the reason why everything's happening to his family. I know it wouldn't be easy, but it's not really right for him to hold the law and get a revenge in exchange to follow the darkness Vargaz had brought him. Kahit na kasabay ako sa galit niya, ayoko pa ring umabot siya sa paraang pati sarili niya ay dudungisan at ilalagay sa panganib.
Nang nasa basement parking na kami ng isang prestihiyosong gusali, pinili ko pa ring manahimik kahit hindi ko alam ang lugar pero batid kong dito siya tumutuloy kapag nasa Makati. Marahan kong tinanggal ang seatbelt, I heard the click of his seatbelt too as he halted the car on the spot.
"I'm sorry, Raes..." he said as his head bowed down and looks at the steering wheel in front of him.
"F-For what?" I asked, smiling lightly and turned my head to him. "Wala ka namang kasalanan."
"I am a sinner and I'm sorry for wanting you beside me while I'm going insane about everything around me." he gasped. "I-I'm just sorry... I'm sorry for being like this."
Suminghap ako at mabilis siyang hinawakan sa kamay, I lifted it up to my cheek and brushes his warm palm against my cheek gently. He didn't look back, he just looks so down and worn out.
"I'll be always here beside you while healing everything, Primiel. I love you and that's what I could only do... now. I understand you, don't worry about me." I reached his nape and kissed his cheek softly.
I love him and I'm here to help him, not just that but also make him feel he won't be alone even in this situation. Mananatili ako sa tabi niya, sa maliwanag o madalim man na parte ng mundong ito. Maybe, I couldn't get at least a half of his pain now but he needs someone who can shelter him while healing.
The following days became apparently silent, umuuwi ako sa condo ni Saint pero mas dinalasan ko ang pagbisita at pananatili sa unit ni Primiel. His shift is 7 in the morning until 7 PM so in between those vacant hours without him, I am working with my client online. Kapag wala talagang magawa, kinakausap sila Mama sa Skype o 'di kaya'y lumalabas para maglakad sa Forth. The place is so nice to have a roam around, I don't usually get out, though. So far, Primiel's still stiff and dark but he's talking now. Mas gusto ko na mayroon siyang duty palagi para nalilibang siya sa sariling gawain sa ospital at hindi masyadong naiisip ang nangyari.
"Hindi, Masey. We can talk about it when I get back." tahimik kong sinabi habang tinitingnan ang mataas na gusali ng ospital sa tapat, I'm sitting on the two seater table inside Jollibee when Masey called.
