Across the Universe: Book 2~Prinxiety

7. He knows? (Roman)

I sat there staring at Virgil as he laid there burned. I did this. I hurt him. Worst is... I didn't mean to. I had no control. Whose to say I don't do it again. I get pissed or I have an attack... anything could set me off and this is the result. I gripped at my shirt, feeling the crystal warm up in response to my anxiety. I'm a literal time bomb. I hurt the man I love. There is no way I can apologize for that.

I felt the crystal start to burn my skin and I flinched. You could hear it sizzling as it got even hotter. I grabbed it and held it in my hand despite the pain and cringed. She never said it would hurt. 

"Roman?" I let go of the crystal and turned around to see Logan standing there with a med kit. He saw the burns on my hand and he frowned. He walked over pulling my hand in close and sighed, as he started to treat it. "I thought you promised you wouldn't do this again."

"I swear it was not like that." He looked up at me and I smiled sadly, moving the collar of my shirt to reveal the burn there as well. He looked back at me and I could see the tears start to form. He started to take the necklace off so he could treat the burn, but I slapped his hand away and jumped up. I gripped my shirt again trying to steady my breathing but it wasn't working. The constant burning from the crystal only brought to attention how easily I could snap.

"Roman, sweety, breathe." He pulled me into a hug and held me close. I melted into his parental love and tried to calm myself down. "Just breathe. It's ok. Nothing will happen. Just breathe, kiddo."

I opened my eyes to find the crystal in his hand and not around my neck. I immediately jumped up and ran to the vanity. Logan quickly walked over, locking the door and bringing the med kit over to where I was. I looked over at him and shook my head. 

"e̷e̛t̡̧͝p͘n͡͞.̴͞.a̷ơ̕l̕s.̴.̸͝.͠.̶̴d '̸̡͞ "

 Logan sighed grabbing my arm and leading me back over to the chair. He pushed his glasses up and started to treat the burn only to notice the wraps and frown again.

"He did a number on you again, huh?" I gave him a look of confusion and he just smiled. The same fake smile Pat would make to try to cheer us up even though he was hurting. "Virgil... He hurt you again."

  "i͘i̢̕͜.tu̵̵m ͢͠rh͏҉h̡͡ " 

"Roman, you know I can't understand you when you talk like that." I narrowed my eyes and reached out towards the crystal. Logan pulled back, keeping it away from me like some bad game of reach for it. I took a deep breath and glanced at the potted plant beside Virgil's bed. "I don't know where you got this but if it's what burned you, I am not going to give it back."

"ǫg̴̷̨.͜͝l̵͠.̵̕n.à̷͡" He shook his head and I ran a hand through my hair. I glanced back at the plant and saw as Logan followed my gaze, frowning when his eyes spotted it. I took a deep breathe and groaned. She did say learn to control it. Please don't hurt anyone... Please don't hurt anyone...

"Roman?"

" e͡k̢͜o̧͞͠ņ͘n҉̷̛c̵̨.̸c̡͘ ͘͞ļ̴a̴e͟w " I watched as a tiny sprout grew from the plant, wrapping itself around the chain and pulling it out of Logan's grasp. The sprout then got smaller, bringing the crystal in close, and the plant shook its leaves, causing the crystal to fly out. I reached out a grabbed it before Logan could do anything. Not that he would, he just watched the whole thing in shock.

"Ok, so that happened." He looked back over at me and cringe as I put the necklace back on. "Roman..."

"I can't control it." His eyes went wide and he looked over at Virgil. "I'm sure your aware of that."

"This isn't the first time this has happened." I looked up at him and saw as the tears finally began to fall.

"The thing is..."

"LOGAN, YOU UNLOCK THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW!" I jumped up grabbing the crystal as it slowly warmed up. Logan quick jumped up opening the door and letting a very pissed Patton enter the room. Pat took one look at me and cringed. "I'm sorry."

"I told you... I can't... handle... that..." Patton cringed at the fear in my voice and I could feel the burning again. This is not going to work if every time I have an attack, I get burned. I flinched and Logan saw it, frowning. 

"I'm sorry ok? I shouldn't have yelled. It's just... This is the fourth time that he's locked me out." I looked over at Logan and nodded. Seriously this has happened at least four times. Or more likely he's only known for four times. Maybe I should lock myself away. What with those odds and all. "It doesn't matter. Did you do it yet?"

"Do what yet?" He looked over at me and the room went silent. "Logan do you know what he's talking about?"

"Do what... That thing you do. I don't know. You never told us what it was. I just know it always helped him." Patton started pacing the floor lost in thought. "Look, I don't care about what happened earlier I just want him to get better."

"Patton, I seriously don't know what you're talking about. If I could help him don't you think I would?" Logan's eyes went wide and he looked over at me in shock. Patton stopped pacing and I saw the tears start to fall. It broke me. Not only did it hurt to see Logic crying but the fact that it was Patton only made it a 100 times worse. 

"Roman, now isn't the time for games. Virgil is hurt again! I..." I growled and Patton took a step back. The heat being me back to the fact that I was getting to upset. I clenched my fist and took another deep breath. 

"I Don't. Know What. You Want Me. To Do!"

"Help him."

"I can't!"

"Falsehood!"

"I'm not lying. I can't do what your asking!"

"You've done it before."

"I'm sorry but I can't help you."

"Why?"

"BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE DID!" I gripped at my shirt and fell to my knees, palm on the floor. The room was spinning and I couldn't catch my breath. I didn't even notice the fact that the crystal wast burningn me this time. I did notice the stares. Logan waled over, pulling my head up to look at them.

"What do you mean by he?"

"I'm sorry. I was going to tell you Lo. I trully was. But then he stanted yelling and everything happened." The air caught in my chest and I started to weaz, making Logan even more worried. "I can't handle anything. I can't control anything. I don't know anything."

"Roman..."

"Shut up Pat and let me speak." He looked away and cringed. I just can't get over Patton being Logic. Telling Logan to shut up was a past time of mine but now... Making either of them upset is just heartbreaking. "We're not from here."