the guy the guy that I though that hate me and thought I was stupid for a girl

Chapter 4

So I just know that there a lot of things that need to be done and that I just know that when I was a kid I want do some fun and that I wish that I had something to do all the time and that came true now and it nice and fun what keep me busy all the time so what I been thing how can the girls not enjoy this all the time but hey it there lost not my so I just think that thing just been good for me and that I just know that I don't want know what it is that make me want to just keep doing what I do now and that I want stay here and that I wish sometimes that my best friends know what go's on in my life now days so what I think is that it hard on how busy I am and how busy she is and that just can't happen.

 So I just keep my self busy all the time at first but then now it just a lot and I want see the way it turns out for me because that all I can do and that I just want know if that it met for me who I am now and where I am at now because I just know that I don't want leave and that what I ask my self sometimes everyday another times I just think it but hey I can help it but Novel just looks at me sometimes when I am think and it makes me think that he like's me when he does because if he did then he would treat me the way he is and that I have to keep tell my self that and when I do that when I know that I can tell him anything and that I should want to for what he trying to do something and tell the hole school and that I would want to and that when I told myself to not talk to him at all and that don't try so what I just know that things are gone get crazy and harder then it is for myself if I open up to anyone one at the school so I just know that I need to keep to myself until I leave the school and that not until December and man I just can't wait to leave school but I know after few years I be wish that I had left but hey that makes  happen who know's we just have to wait and see.

What I do about another people try to get me to talk what is it are they try to make some kind of bet on who can get me to talk or say that they want with out tell me or what because it just stupid to me and that I just need to keep tell myself that not a person to talk to because just another person and that what is with this school more like the kids that go here about drama and gossip because it just stupid but at the same time I can get it because I was once there age but that just some to let go after so long and that I just I can take it at this school because it also a small town as well.

But the way I see it sometime's I see that I am broken all my life I see myself that way and that I am not met to be fix or anything I was just met to be broken but now look back I see that I was just feel that way because I was where I met to be and that now that I have I just know that things just have been do different now then before and that I just know that I don't want go back to that and that I don't ever want think about my father so that what I just tell myself that why I say it now because for five years I have though about him since the day I left and I move to my mom and my sister.