the guy the guy that I though that hate me and thought I was stupid for a girl

chapter 5

I have though about him is because there is no need to think about the guy so all I just do is that I keep going and move and as long as I have all my good friends to talk to then I can keep going because the first guy I ever truely love is now my best friend and it hard to hate, him or even not talk to him because sometimes I feel like he met to be in my life another times I feel that my life is rap around him.

When I start to talk to him I just tell him about eveything Novel and that he I ask him why Novel is doing to me and he say because he life me and one time I told him what Novel did that day and that when he just say that Novel likes me or something and that I just know that it werid because it just it I can explain why it like he try to get some informashen about me out so that it can be all around that school and that there thing about me this year and I would want there to be unless I am gone because then I would have to care about anything.

So I just know that I tend to do my best to make me feel okay at the school because I have to make it though this year and that thing is that I just know that some going on with Novel but I just can't put my figure on it and that I just know that thing is that I need to just let it go for me but how can I when Novel is try every single day of the week and that just hard to let go and that I just want be way from the guy  but that not gone let go. 

So I just plan to do my best make it though the day and that another time when Novel try to talk to me again that when I start to hum when he ask something or just that it and that things were and that I just know that it both Novel try to get me to open up to him be his friends and that he want to get my secaret so that he can tell his friends and that what I just say and let me tell you why is because Novel want the light on him and he can unless there something new to talk about like his friends have everyday and that thing is that I just know that I a person that there thing much say about me and that just it so I wait when I leave then I will start talk to him maybe.

So I just know that things have been just a lot different for me when I think about it then what I use to back home and it is so different from my first high school so what I just know that things just been help me a lot but it is a lot hard so I just make it though the years and I just have came a long way that what my mom say and that she cry sometimes when she talk about how she can belive that I gone be cragewait this year and it was post to be with a friend but she left because of the gossip and that just stupid but she will did left.