the guy the guy that I though that hate me and thought I was stupid for a girl

Chapter 20

I did not plan to for get I just had a lot that it did cross my mind but you know I am not perfect I do not think that no one is perfect I just do what I can but I just new that it has been complicated and that I just know that thing been different and they feel different sometimes when I am around Novel but you know that he just guy and I try so hard to not let him get to me and I try so hard bot to feel anything for him because he just a jerk that I have to dill with but you know it only so long that you can push a person way from your heart but the way that he make me feel I can help it and that I wish that I do not feel it for him.

Only one time I want to kiss him but I stop myself and that I just know that I can not love him because I know that he would love me he is a player and a jerk he does care for anyone feelings but his so I know that I can not love him I just know that I feel that I should just do what I am here to do and just keep my heart from be broken again and that I just can not take the fact that he just think that I am a joke.

IT just feel so worid that I am in his house and in his bedroom and that it its dark because we still had work that needs to be done and that he weather me be here and that I do not feel okay be here at his house and be in a room just the two of use and that I just know that I would feel better if that someone else was in here but I know he would try and fine way that we be alone but you know that I just dill with it and go right to work so I just know.

But I end up stay the night because I did not even remember going to bed and I had sleep in his bed and when I had wake up I turn my head and he was not in the bed so I look down and he was sleep on the floor and that I had try and leave and say thing so I grab my things and snike out and close the door quietly and that I see his mom and she like would like some breakfast and I say no thank you I must get home.