Chapter 18

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Me: really last time we hang out you were use me!

Novel: Your never gone let it go!

Me:  No because that scar me for life and now that all I see that boy's want from me! they another use me or play me!

Novel: Ho I am sorry I did think that would be this way if I new I would have done what I did!

Me: Any ways so what you want talk about Novel!

Novel: I don't know what ever you want to I just know that it nice hang out with you we do not get to do this anymore!

Me: well I just don't have much to say to you anymore am sorry but this does make things back to the way they were before!

Novel: I know that it take time but I just figure that there could be postblite\ that things could go back!

Me: well I just know that we are different people now and that there a bigger change that it won't be and that there small change that it would happen we just have to see what happens!

Novel: Why would you want stop it from things going back like they use to be because of us change!

Me: that and before you were a guy that I love you and I was gone come out and tell you and ask you but you pole what you did because you had to be one of the cool kids  and not my friend anymore so it hurt me a lot and I just can't for give you and that I am not ready to let myself for give you and that I do not think it ever be the same ever again but I just know that I start fine myself again and I when out with another guy and yea he did a little of the same that you did but I just know that I can't bar to have any contact with you at all this mit be the last time!

Novel: OH that is a lot and those are some good point and reason why you would want anything to do with me but I just know that all I can do is say am sorry for do all that and that I did want to I was happy where I was when we were friends but my dad make me do what I did he told me to do what you have to get in the cool kids and what I did to you is what it took and I hate him and myself for doing it!

Me: Well it all out there now but see does change thing it just out there flow away and that my feeling for you is gone and that there not come back because lock them way and that I have a good guy and I not let him go and I not give you change to make meds or anything like that but I just know that I can not hurt him even more the that you hurt me with words or cheat on him because that how I feel when you lost your virginity because I remember when you and I talk about being each other first but you change your mind and give it to another girl!

Novel: Oh so your still a virgin I ........ am so sorry and I for got about that and you are right and I just know that the guy you choose to give it to is one lucky guy and that I hope that he holds on to you and never let you go because you are a good person don't let any guy take that way!

Me: well thanks for say that but we just have to see where things go for use first would you think so!

Novel: So what is his name!

Me: Well I do mind and I do not want say and that only thing I will tell you is that he does go to the school!

Novel: OH okay I understand does he go  to school at all if you don't mind me ask!

Me: No and yes he does that why I just feel better because are schools are a part and that I do not have to dill with drama!

After say that to Novel he just stop talk and that he could think of thing to say anymore because he new that I was smart that I do not think about drama or anything so I just would dill with the fact that it nice not to hear about myself all over the school.

But when he was ready to talk again are food had came all ready and I just slow eat and he just look at me like he was watch me eat and that he want say something but he would I do not get why but he just does.

when he start talk all he say how the food. what you think? so what you think about it? all I did was look at him and that I just did say thing and that I just know that he was butter me up but I just could tell why and that I just when a long in my own way and that I was hope that he could tell and from the way that it seam was that he could tell at all and that was good for me but not for him because I new that he want know what was going on he feel that he need to but since I new him well nuff I new how to play it and it fun for me because in way I was show him how I feel I had to put my feelings side to that I had for him show him how it hard for me to trues him or anything that has to do with him.

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