the guy the guy that I though that hate me and thought I was stupid for a girl

Chapter 10

I just do not get what Novel met about when he say that one day he will break me and that I will say anything to get what he want out me and that I just know I do everything I can to not let that happen so what I do keep think about how long I have until I can be gone and would have to dill with Novel bolshie and that there times where I want just be done and I try so hard to wait until my mom a sleep or with aunt so I can cry it out to myself and things just can never go right for me at all.

When I look at things sometime I see sometimes that Novel is right the fact that I am broken and that no one would want take the time with me so I just a waste of time to all guys and it hurt that Novel say that but I think he is right I am just a waste of time and I hate to hear it but it is true if I was me I mit not want spin the time with a person like me but then again I have and that my best fried so I just wonder why I was put in this life  and I feel broken and I only cry nod stop in side me but not on the out side of me.

I just hope that one day that Novel will great say it I been sleep sometimes I just know that I not gone change because what he say I gone change because I want to change and that I can feel good about myself but thing really just think that what I do now is what best for me anymore and that I just know that things need to change and that I just can figure it out sometime what it is because ever year I get this feeling when the year is almost gone so what I think it is about what people were say about me and that things.

I just want know why did Novel pick on me and that I just want it to stop but Novel see no as yes and that why he come at me that why I found out but you know but what he know that there no turn back and that one day I can get back at him feeling and that I hope that make him hurt as much as he did to me and that I just want make him feel the way I feel all the time because what he say and does to me all the time at the school.

but sometimes when he say the right thing to me at times I just would know weather to hate him or love him and that what I ask myself at times and that I want see what it but I should it what he say that the moment so what I would think so and that I want see things for his point of view sometimes to understand why he does this all the time in class but who know maybe I understand one day so what I just know that I done with the school and the kids already so.

I wonder how he would feel if he was the new person at the school and that people just get all up in his busy and people keep bother him even though he ask them to leave him alone and that things will keep going from there and just be make fun of him all just because he where glass or that he does understand a lot of things like another people can do and that I just see that things are stupid a lot but you know I love that he try a lot to break me but you know I just want make him hurt more like his feeling then anything and I just stay quit like do most of the time.