the guy the guy that I though that hate me and thought I was stupid for a girl

chapter 9

I talk to novel one time and that was just stupid how he was say what am and where ever I came from I need to go back because I am not wanted here so pick your things up and leave because if you don't then I will do ever thing I have to make you want move. I just look Novel in the eye and say thing because he does scared me at all so I just walk way and that was it.

I have been think about how I though I would have start off and that things just so different to me and that I love it here I not gone let some guy I do not know scared me off and that what I keep tell myself all day but you know I ready to be do with school all to gather I just know that I gone say thing because I nothing to say and that I had to think about on how things just seam different to me once I leave but I just hope that one day Novel would regret the way he treated me.

I just try to think about what I need to do to get things done really fast so that I do not have to dill with all this drama with this guy that what I tell myself everyday and the thing is that people do not know that Novel does get that I do not care about him and that do not want anything to do with him and that I think he just a stupid boy that try to fine things that make him look cool and I just say that stupid and that I still scared to open up to a guy but I know for should that I do not want Novel to be the first guy that I want open up again once I ready to let a guy in and I just know that things just seam to be complicated for me so what I just know that Novel is not the guy for me in anyway do think if I would talk to him or even not say hi think I would think he be friends at all.

SO I would say that thing do not make me feel good about myself at all when novel is around ever time it feel like he put me down and that it some times make feel the pain that he makes in my heart and I just know that he just a jerk I know that and that I need to know matter what I can not let that change me at all so I just would think that there is a place in my heart and that I need keep have a open mind no matter what novel does to me I just can not let him see if he breaks.

But it be nice if he see things from my point of view but I just know that will never happen and that things that I go though he will never understand because he just guy that think he all bad ass and that any girl would be lucky to have him and that I wonder at time that he would be make them complicated and that why I just let and you wonder why I do not talk to you and that he just talk to the teacher.

I just know that there times I had someone that understand what I am going though and that I just know that I feel stupid at times and that thing just never changes at times so what I do now with my life and that I wonder what I should do at times and that thing sometimes I look at things would just be stupid at times what Novel does and that I wonder who this guy where he is that right for me but my best friend tell me sometimes but there times where I tell myself that there will be know one in my life that will ever understand what I am going though so I just cry once I snap and that things sometimes.