the guy the guy that I though that hate me and thought I was stupid for a girl

Chapter 13

But anyways so Novel had chose with out think that he want to stay cool but you know that his friends had still got on to him about bring me to one of there party's and to make me look bad and you know why would I want go to a party anyways know that there try make look  bad if frunt of the hole school and be something that they would never let it go.

So I just know that Novel friends are gone keep reminding him until it happens but I know not happen because I not gone let it go so I just know that Novel gone give it another try and that I not give it try so I know that but I know that I would want do what we end up doing first year and I know that it a joke what he gone be doing but I just try make it clear to the guy I do not want anything to do but you know I still love the guy till this date and I be gone.

But one this is that I am gone make my own best years and that I just know that I wish that Novel had chose to be one of  the cool guys because I think it be nice if he could be a part of it and that he could just be my guy best friend because he is a good friends and he have his moments of being a good guy that you want be around but I hope that one day that he be back in my life.

But you know true love is a inperashen and that if we were met to be a part of each other life or met to be lovers then we will fine are away back and that I just know I still have stuff to learn about it but I learn as I go and I sometimes I feel that I could of had everything with Novel but I had give it all up because I care more for his feeling more then my and that I just know that next time I have it with a guy I hope that I would have to let it go if I could of do it all over again.

But I just know that I got go and think about what best for me because I just have myself to care for now and that I would want think but at times I ask myself is this what I really want just care for myself when I know that not what I want so I just know out of no where I get a text from a friend and he ask me out but you know that the thing I just did know that to say and it sometimes like he can ready my mind and I new it was time to move  on and I say to my friend.

I just tell myself good bye Novel one last time and I just did know but he want go out with me and that when I see that it was time to let go after two years almost three years so I just say yes to him and I just know that I was happy about it and it was not until next Friday and that nuff time to get ready.

I just hope that things go good and that thing happens and that we just have a good night and I did know how I was gone do my make up so I look up all kinds of ways on how to do my make up and it had to be perfect but I also did know what I was gone where so I just know that things I just happy like I say that it week until then and I hope that Ryan and that he just would think that be the way things when between me and Novel so yea I know I an sooming thing but I just cared it not gone work out so yea I wonder huh I know I need to let go but I wish my best friend was here to help me but I am happy that she likes it where she at.

I just know that Ryan is also a cute guy maybe a little more cute then Novel an you have to see him to know what I mean.

I just say that what Novel does all the time when he look at me and he just would look at me and when his friends would ask what is he look at and he say thing and his friends would know sometimes that he was look at me and they make fun of him doing that and that when he tell them to just shut the fuck up and stop make fun of him and that it was cool anymore and he get up and just walk way.

This is Ryan and he ask me out Friday and I just could wait until I go out wit him and that things just seam fun all the time with him when we were kids he was funny all the time to me and we make each other happy because we do a lot of crazy things and it was hard for are parent to get us in the house because we hide just to stay outside and hang out and are parent would care if we had the door close when we another one of are rooms because we were kids but once we start have crush then that had stop and that are parents say are doors have to say open because they think we have sex or make out but we do not liked each other that way until it was sad because we both had move way.

I just know that after a week of not talk to Novel well that Friday Novel had ask me if I want to hang out after school and I ask him what about his friends and he say that they are not his friends anymore and that I go out with him on a real date and I told him sorry no I can't because I have plans and I can't change my plans since they been plan for a week and that I was sorry so he say alright and I told him maybe another time because I had to get ready for my date with Ryan and that I had  get ready right when I got home because to do everything it had taken a hole lot of time to do it and that I just know that I was happy so.

When Ryan had came and got me I be ready so I just know that things are gone be fun because Ryan was fun guy and he new the best place to eat and he so cute and I just did think he ask me out and that he say would give it a try and we have change a lot and that we need to get back to know each other so I just know that people have just look at me as if I am a person that no one would want know me at all or not talk to me.

I just know he can be sweet when he want to be so I just know when it was time he knock and that when my mom had answer it and say hey Ryan I think it really was you I though Kami was make it up because since you to were best friends since kids I did think you like her that way. 

OH hey how have you been Michel I know but I just know but I just though we hang since it been so long and I text her out of the blue and I was shot that she say yes because of how long it been just the two of use and that we have hang for the past few months and I want to ask her out but she was date another guy and once I hear she was then I took my change so yea but I just know it be nice so is she ready.

So when my mom told me that he was here then I came down and that when he had say wow and I ask are you ready and he just keep look at me for a moment and I ask my mom what going on and she say that you shot him with your beautiful that when I say oh and then I ask him if we could go now and that when he came back and say yea and I ask what we gone do and that when he say go to the movies and then we eat dinner and that when I ask what we see and that when he say I not should we see what show.

That when I ask him if we go see the basic about sex and that and that when he say okay and that it be nice but I seam like he did want me to pick and I did and that we got popcorn and drinks and when we when to see it we wait few mints and we just talk about how life has been for us and that when I told him that it was my last year and that I could wait to leave.

That when he say can I ask you something and I told him should go head ask way and that when the movie had start and that I turn and wait and that when he was say some I told be quite and that he have to wait because then we go dinner and we talk all we want then and that when I just start eat popcorn.

I after watch the movie it was what I though about it and that I just know that I just really.