the guy the guy that I though that hate me and thought I was stupid for a girl

Chapter 12

I never understand the feeling I feel about the guy but I just know that it there and that I call it as I feel it and know how it is at the moment and that thing is that I just like my body won't let it go and once in a blue moon I can feel it and that thing is that he another does know it or he does want anyone to know just because he want to be the cool guy in front of his football guy friends.

I just think that it stupid you know if you like someone or you had a moment of happy's think that be happy with the person and that I just know that he's way I being happy and cool at the same time he give a face and look that you can just tell that he is happy at all and that I just would think he would care about being happy but he does he care more about how he looks.

I just know that Novel is just a guy that scared to show his really feeling and that he scared that his friends are gone make fun of him and that he has bad taste in girls and that his friends are gone set him up with the time of girl he should be in remember if he want to be poplar then these are the girls that he need to be in to if he want to keep his place.

I am not that should if that why Novel lies about what he feel that he can not open up about his true feeling why he in high school since everyone know that it is the hard  years  in life and when you leave as well but I not so should that what I think and could explain everything or even that his friends bet or something to get him to do what he  been doing with me but hey you know it just take time with these things you know just like in life you have to learn that things take time and that if you are lucky that it happens right way.

I see that Novel had ask me out one time wild back and I say yes and when he walk way and I had when to the bathroom one time and him and few of his friends that are on the football team say that he need to get me to a party and they could have fun and that he even cool and that it be something that everyone would never for get and that  Novel did stick up for me at first and say no he will not do that and that it was right and that they push him on the wall and say that he better do it or they start make things up that he was cool anymore.

I just know that things have just got so complicated I could tell since I hear it all but Novel does know that I hear everything and that when he just was look at me like what wrong and I was zone out the hole time and I say thing and that when he say that I need to ask you something.

Me.: yea what is it!

Novel: I want to ask if you be willing to go to a party with me!

Me: Why does are date have to be at a party!

I ask him that think that he would tell me the truth and that he come out or see if he lie wish would it be.

Novel: um because I though it would be fun!

me: um no I don't want go to a party I am sorry Novel!

Novel: um okay well what you want go  or do!

Me: how about we just take it slow and go to the movies or go to dinner!

Novel: he say okay how about after what you want do!

Me: Idk we figure it out as we are on are date!

I new that Novel had to try get me to that party but you know being myself so I just could figure it out why he would tell me the truth because I hear everything and they did tell that he could tell me any of it so why would he keep it from.

So after sometime and he still would tell me and that only few days until the date and that I wait until the end of the day and that I see Novel and I walk up to him and I say that I don't want go out with you Novel and to leave me alone if your not gone be honest with me so goodbye and I walk way and I did look back but I new that Novel was watch me walk way and did say or do anything and that he got in his car and drove way and that I just look back when he was leave.

I when home and I just lay on my bed think in my head everything that has happen and how I shut Novel down and that I start to think about how everything he had told me was true so that I just slow fall asleep and I did know because I wake up the sun was up and that I check my phone and that it was already seven and that I jump out of bed and hare up and I start make myself something to eat my mom ask why you in a hare and I say I am late for school and she say it not a school day yesterday was Friday and I was like oh I look at my phone again and I see that it was Saturday and she say what you gone do today and I just say I not should yet mom and that you dress would you like to go in town with me and do some shopping and yea why not and that when we eat and I start and we head out the door and I ask her what we need to shop for.

That when she say some food and maybe we have just a girls day and we go to the mall for a little bit and that when I had say okay but my mom does know that I did want to go because I was a little scared that I would see Novel and that he was gone try talk me and that I just know that I could take see him again after what happen yesterday and that he just would try to talk me in to go back out with him because he had to get me to the party like his friends want him to do because if he did then he would never be a cool guy anymore.

Novel could have that because I guess he be depositing one of his parents that pobley why he try his best to make it happen and that why he was doing everything but I though it was weird that I had got a message from Novel and he ask if we could talk and I send him okay lets talk and he say in person and I say no for get it talk though only message.

Novel: why can we talk in person!

Me: because I know why your gone talk me in to go back out with you and I do not want no part of it!

Novel: what do you know kami what is going on!

Me: Just for get it if you don't tell me the truth then I don't want anything to do with you Novel and that to just leave me alone and do not try talk to me ever again if it use me for you to stay the cool guy and that I do not need a guy like you if you will not tell me the truth!

Novel: Kami what did I ever do to you what are you talk about please tell me I really do not know and that I want know because I really do like you and I want go out with you!

Me: Look Novel I know that your football friends told you to bring me to there party and that you are to bring me there or you will never be one of the cool guys and tell me Novel what they gone do if you did get me there just tell me that Novel tell me the truth !

Novel: OH I did know that you hear that I and that party is that they want get you drunk and make look bad and put everything all over the school and they just care about make another people leafing and put on Facebook and show the hole world  and they don't care about how bad it makes you look so and I don't care about that because it not right but I know I will have to do something!

Me: what you gone do about it because if I do not show up there with you then would you no long have friends since that not gone happen and that you want stay there friends and that I just know I do not want no part of it so I am sorry Novel so I think it just best that we no long have anything to do with each other you tell them that I shut you down and that you try everything you could talk me in to it and that thing would work.

Novel: Okay I guess if that what you wish that we do!

So I did say anything after that and that I change my number and that I just would for get it but now I just really do like Novel but I do want do anything with him ever since that day I had just never though about him and that only few times I though about Novel but also we do not know thing about each other and that I just know that I wish that I had give that date but it was best for the both of use and that we need to stick part but know this is my finely year.