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Chapter 12 - The Moment She Knew

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I honestly couldn't believe that I was going to prom. This year had been the roughest year of my life and I just didn't feel like going to prom to be surrounded by people I didn't even care about in the first place. It had already been a few months since Rose and I "broke up" - only if you could call it that. I missed her a lot - a lot more than I actually thought I would when I started this game. She was different in a very good way and she liked, even loved, me although I was the biggest prick towards her.

It was crazy and I still didn't know what I did to deserve the love she gave me, but I was forced to ruin whatever we had. I couldn't bear to be close to her anymore because I didn't want to fall in love with her or catch any feelings towards her. I had a goal and I needed to accomplish that certain goal. It was for the best to split our ways and let her be herself again. I was already putting her through enough and I was not in the right state of mind to deal with her heartbreak once she found out that I only used her for my own benefits.

Rose was a good girl. She had a lot of love to give. She cared about everyone and always tried to help people but she had to love herself first. She was an easy catch and that's why it didn't take long for her to develop feelings for me. You just had to say a few nice things to her, take her to some beautiful places and basically just touch her and boom - she likes you.

I realized that I had to stop this game when I noticed her scars. She was in too deep and I had to pull her out but it was harder than I thought it would be. I didn't notice that I had fallen head over heels in love with this girl during the process of getting my payback. Everything felt different and better whenever I was close to her. She had this power, the ability to make me feel good but sadly, my demons still had the upper hand on me.

While she tried to save me from myself, she couldn't save herself from me. That was my wake-up call. I needed to distance myself from her. I had to let her go. I didn't deserve her and she didn't deserve any of this. I was destined to rot in hell after everything I put her through.

The secret phone calls, the secret messages - well, being secretive in general had to stop. Rose was smart. She was definitely feeling that something was wrong and that's why she kept doubting my words. Josephine tried to contact me. She was constantly messaging me about how much she missed me and all that stuff but I didn't buy any of her lies. I texted her just for fun. I wanted to fool her just to break her heart like she broke mine.

But then there was Rose. She was inbetween all of this mess, so I did what I should have done long ago: I broke up with her. Why? Because I reached what I wanted to reach: Make Andrew and Josephine jealous. Andrew was going nuts because there was nothing he could do. He was a coward. In order to warn Rose about me, he had to tell her about the fact that he cheated on her not once but twice but that's something he couldn't do.

I couldn't take my eyes off of Rose ever since she stepped foot into this auditorium. She looked exhausted but still so freaking beautiful and I truly just felt like embracing her in my arms until she'd fall asleep with her head pressed to my chest - like she used to.

"I wish I would have worn my hair down, don't you think?" Josephine asked after a few minutes of silence. I hated myself for doing this, but I just prayed for Rose not to see us although that was the plan all along. She'd move on from me quicklier if she saw Jo and I together again. And after this night, I'd tell Josephine to get out of my life once and for all. Even though Rose always told me to forgive and not to forget, I could neither forgive nor forget what she did to me. I simply dispised her. "Miles?"