*Long Chapter *I'll tell you when to play the video in the story
Like 2 weeks later For the past two weeks I've been at home as my parents didn't want me going to school after me having an incident with Max twice. Also I had to wait for my black eye to heal up. Mr Mendes has been texting me like crazy saying that it's not his fault that Miss Miah kissed him and that he truly loves me. I didn't buy that bullshit so I blocked him. Also that tutor my dad bought for me came over to help me catch up with school work.
In like three weeks time we are going to have our annual winter prom. I know it's sounds weird but it's basically a Christmas themed party before we leave for the holidays. I honestly don't care about it anymore... like I wanted to go but now I can't be bothered. Today is Sunday so unfortunately I have to go school tomorrow but I don't have to worry about Max because apparently now he's in some youth centre or something. Plus he's definitely not going to be able to spread anything to anyone. But still during my sleep I still imagine Max punching me and I still have the reoccurring nightmare of Max just choking me to death. Monday I wake up go to the bathroom and do all my usual shit. I pick up a nice outfit as I kinda want to look good on my first day back after the incident. So I wear:
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I put my hair up into to space buns, do my eyebrows,mascara and put on my lipgloss.
At School I see Jenna talking to one of her cousins outside History and I sneak up behind her. "BOOOO" I yell making Jenna scream "HOLY SHIT!" She screams then turns around to see it's me. "Awww Y/N I've missed you" She squeals hugging me tightly "Loving the outfit!" I exclaim. This is what Jenna is wearing.
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"Thanks same to you!! We're practically twinning with our pants/trousers!!" Jenna screams and I giggle. The day was pretty good it was Jenna and I. No drama just me and her hanging out like usual. "What do we have last??" I ask while eating a hamburger "Umm music" Jenna says "Ughhh ok" I reply rolling my eyes "Wait do you still care about Mr Mendes?" She asks "Pfft no he can go hang out with Miss Miah..the love of his life"I scoff "Oh ok cuz he hasn't been in school for like two weeks" Jenna casually says before biting into a chocolate bar. I almost choke on my burger but I luckily swallow it and my eyes widen. "WHAT?!!" I scream in the lunch hall "Yeah ever since you haven't been in we have just had multiple cover teachers for music" Jenna replies. My heart stops as I realise I have made a huge mistake.
Miss Miah probably did pull him into a kiss and when I walked in it looked the complete opposite to what actually happened. If he really wanted to see Miss Miah he would come into school everyday but he's given up on coming into workbecause I blocked him out.
I feel so bad....I need to fix this, I need to apologise.
During Music I couldn't focus, I couldn't help but think of him. I quickly turn my back to the teacher and unblock him on my phone and change his contact to 'Shawn'. I quickly text my mum saying I won't need to be dropped off or picked up anymore to school as Max is gone. But little does my mum know that I really just want to visit Shawn after school.
After Music, I tell Jenna what I want to do. "What? I thought you didn't care about him after what he did" Jenna says furrowing her eyebrows in confusion "But to be honest he tried to contact me through out the past two weeks asking if I was asking ok and explaining the whole situation isn't what it seems" I mumble "Awww that's why he hasn't come into school. Did you at least reply?" Jenna asks "Umm well I-uh blocked him but I was angry at the time. B-but I've unblocked him now" I stutter "Damn that shows that you hurt him a lot Y/N" Jenna states "Thanks Jenna" I sarcastically say frowning "No but that shows that he actually loves you and think you need to go to his house like n-now" She replies as we start to walk As we leave school it starts to rain like really fucking badly and neither of us have an umbrella so we ran. After we arrive at Jenna's house she hugs me goodbye and I quickly walk past my house and 5 mins later I arrive at Shawn's. I knock on the door and while I wait in the cold rain I hear him singing as his bedroom window is open slightly. (Play video at the top of page)
*I know a girl, she's like a curse We want each other, no one will break first So many nights, trying to find someone new They don't mean nothing compared to her, and I know When people ask about us, now, we just brush it off I don't know why we act like it means nothing at all I wish that I could tell you that you're all that I want, yeah I pretend that I'm not ready Why do we put each other through hell? Why can't we just get over ourselves? And you say hi like you just met me Why do we put each other through hell? Why can't we just get over ourselves? Why can't we just get over ourselves? When I hear you sing, it gets hard to breathe Can't help but think every song's about me And every line, every word that I write You are the muse in the back of my mind, oh Don't want to ask about it 'cause you might brush it off I'm afraid you think that it means nothing at all I don't know why I won't admit that you're all I want I pretend that I'm not ready Why do we put each other through hell? Why can't we just get over ourselves? And you say hi like you just met me Why do we put each other through hell? Why can't we just get over ourselves? I pretend that I'm not ready Why do we put each other through hell? Why can't we just get over ourselves? And you say hi like you just met me Why do we put each other through hell? Why can't we just get over ourselves? I know a girl, she's like a curse We want each other, no one will break first So many nights, trying to find someone new They don't mean nothing compared to you*
I didn't realise I have been standing out in the rain for like 4 mins straight as the song is just beautiful. I know it's about me and that's what hurts the most. The amount of passion and emotion he put into the song is too much for me to bare as I quickly wipe the tears from my eyes and cheeks. I ring the doorbell again and I hear him quickly close the window. I take a deep breath as I don't know whether he will actually want to speak to me.
Suddenly Shawn opens the door wearing a grey Harvard hoodie with black pj bottoms with puffy eyes from crying and his messy curly hair. His eyes widen to see me at the door shivering and drenched from the rain. Tears automatically roll down my cheeks to see him in such a shitty state because of me. "Shawn..I'M SORRY!" I cry hugging him tightly and he squeezes me lovingly. We stay in a hug for a good 2 mins out in the rain. His body is so warm and just being wrapped in his arms makes me feel so safe from the outside world. He lets go and we walk in and I close the door behind me. "I-I'M SO SORRY I-I'M SO FUCKING SORRY SHAWN FOR NOT BELIEVING YOU. I SHOULDN'T HAVE LEFT YOU ALONE ALL THESE FUCKING NIGHTS!!' I SHOULD'VE RESPONDED TO YOUR CALLS AND TEXTS!!I MADE YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT!! YOU DIDN'T COME INTO WORK BECAUSE OF ME!!I RUINED YOUR LIFE AND I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND IF YOU DON'T FORGIVE ME!!" I yell as tears pour down my face ruining my mascara completely. Before he let me continue he kisses me passionately with his soft plump wet lips. He puts his hands on my waist and I run my hands through his tangled drenched hair. "Don't worry I forgive you... I don't blame you for acting that way... it just really made me depressed that you didn't want keep in contact with me anymore. I really missed your presence and the happiness you brought me." Shawn whispers looking down at me while my arms are wrapped around his neck. "I'm really sorry" I sob "Shhhh" He says "I love you honey" He whispers in my ear "I love you too Shawn" I whisper back
