I walk to the door of the restaurant and notice Shawn isn't behind me. I walk around for a few minutes and finally find him scratching the back of his neck in a corner. "Where were you?" I ask as we leave the place "I'll tell you when you get into the jeep" He sighs and I furrow my eyebrows in confusion. "Okaaaay then" I say confused and we get into his jeep. Now tell me what's wrong Shawn" I sigh facing him and placing hand on top of his. "Well it's not bad.." He continues "Shawn just tell me goddamn it!!" I yell "Okay!!" He shouts back making me giggle "So while you were walking Andrew Gertler touched me on the shoulder and said he really liked my performance and offered me a record deal" He says and my eyes widen "TELL ME YOU ACCEPTED IT SHAWN!" I scream "Well no I-" He tries to say "WHAT THE FUCK SHAWN OH MY GOD??!!" I yell "No no wait I was going to say it but he had to go but he give me his number and told me to call him when I've made up my mind but it has to be soon" He says calming me down "Okay Shawn you can do whatever you want to do but just think about it probably" I whisper "I know... of course I want to do it but if I do I'll have to leave my job and work in another state or even country and that means leaving you Y/N" He frowns stroking my cheek "Oh I didn't think about that Shawn....well I'll let you think about it I don't want to get in the way of your potential future" I weakly smile.
The drive home was silent and pretty tense since I know Shawn wants to accept the deal but I know he doesn't want to leave me but then again if he's not a teacher we won't have to hide our relationship.
There has to be a way around this shit....
We arrive home and we both go upstairs and get ready for bed. "Goodnight baby" I whisper and I realise that somehow Shawn is already asleep so I just kiss him goodnight on the forehead.
Next Morning
I wake up to see that Shawn isn't next to me and I furrow my eyebrows in confusion as I rub my eyes and get up. I walk to the bathroom to see the door is slightly open.
"Shawn?" I say slowly pushing the door open to see Shawn sitting on the floor with his head in his hands. "Oh my god Shawn are you okay?!!" I yell sitting down next to him. He lifts his head from his hands and looks at me and I see that his eyes are extremely puffy and red from crying a lot. "Shawn why are crying and how long have you been crying for?" I ask bringing his head onto my chest. "I-I woke up in the middle of the night because I was having a full on panic attack because I'm so stressed and confused about what to do...I-I don't wanna hurt anyone especially you so I rushed into the bathroom and I've pretty much just been here" He sobs "Shaaawn.....it's okay you're not going to hurt anyone by your decision okay" I whisper "Y/N YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I DON'T WANNA FUCKING LOSE YOU BABY!!! I WISH YOU COULD JUST COME WITH ME AND SUPPORT MY FUTURE CAREER!" He cries loudly "Shawn maybe there is a way for me to come with you" I whisper "I doubt that honey how are your parents going to let you go" He sobs "Well I mean my parents are hardly at home" I say "No you're not running away from home" He states sitting up now leaning against the toilet. "What do you want to do?Shawn just tell me now." I plead "I-I wanna accept the deal" He mumbles "Then go ahead...just call him" I whisper and I kiss his cheek. "Before I do I need to take a shower and calm down" He sniffles getting up and I do too. "I'll gladly join you" I giggle making him smile.
After the shower, I put on this:
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I put my hair into a hair ponytail,leave my face bare again and put on my pineapple flavoured lip gloss.
"Baby what should I wear?" He asks as he scrambles through his wardrobe while he's only in his boxers. "Umm black jeans of course....and this shirt" I giggle pulling it out of the wardrobe "Okay okay this could work" He says as I sit on the bed on the bed and go on my phone.
A few minutes later.. "What do you think?" He asks as I look up from my phone .
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"Cuteeee!!" I squeal clapping my hands making him laugh. "I'm gonna go downstairs and make my self breakfast" I state walking over to the door "Do you want anything?" I question turning around to him "Nah I'm fine...I think I'm going to make that call now" He says confidently "Okay baby" I smile as I go leave the room closing the door.
I mean I want him to follow his dreams.....but he is right I won't be able to see him anymore if he becomes a huge celebrity. Ughhh I really don't know anymore...
