what should i do?// hwall (tbz)

Lovely Swings

Y/N's POV

   I feel so pathetic. Like those people who doesn't know what to do with their lives anymore.

We had a free-structured subject for one hour today since the teacher said she had some errands to do so she'll cancel class for today. My classmates were all chatting and everything, some are playing around, using their phones, but here I am, like an outcast, spacing out and looking at nowhere. I feel so blue and lonely right now. Some of my classmates tried to talk to me but I guess they realized I'm not in the mood to talk.

I still can't get over the fact that Hwall actually likes Hyerin. I shouldn't be affected like how I really am since Hyerin is my friend and Hwall is as well, and I should just be happy for them. But it hurts like hell and I don't even know why. I guess the pain will pass away after some time. That's how it works, doesn't it?

"Y/N." I hear a voice calling out for me.

"Y/N." It called me once again. My head is probably messing up with me.

"Hey, Y/N." I see an arm waving infront of me, just to realize it was Hwall calling me all along.

"Yes?" I looked at Hwall who seems to be concered about me.

Oh who are you kidding, why would he be concerned?

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yep." I said.

"I don't think you are."

"I'm okay, Hwall." I gave him a smile.

"No, you're not." He glared at me. This guy is really stubborn.

"How do you say so?" I asked him.

"You've been unusually quiet ever since classes started today. You didn't even finish your lunch. And, boy, it's so obvious that that smile is fake. I know something's wrong." Was he observing me or something?

"But nothing's wrong. I'm okay." I tried to smile once again but he really didn't believe me.

"Is it because I like Hyerin?" His question made me silent. "I knew it. But I'm really sorry Y/N. I know you have a crush on me and all... man, I sound so arrogant saying this..."

"It's okay, Hwall. It's normal for me to get hurt, but I assure you, I'll be really fine." I smiled for the last time.

"Okay then. If you say so. But I really didn't mean to hurt you."

"Hey, it's really okay. I like your friends too, don't worry about me. I can even help you with Hyerin." I said for the last time which made him just smile and nod at me.

I should seriously stop acting like this. I'm making Hwall worried about me. He shouldn't mind me and just focus in his feelings for Hyerin. How will he be able to confess to her if I'm in his way? I should just really help him with the girl she likes. He's my crush after all, right? As long as he's happy, I'm happy too.

Man, I sound stupid.

A lot of things are suddenly appearing in my head.

Aishhh... Y/N stob it! (lmao)

"Y/N!" I hear Jaehan calling out for me from outside the classroom. I must have been staring at nowhere all this time that I lost track of the time. It's now dismissal.

"Hi, Jaehan." I tried to greet as cheerfully as possible.

"Wanna go get some yogurt?" She asked me.

"Hey guys! I'm here!" We turned our heads to the right to see Hyerin waving at us and smiling. My heart sank a little.

"Hi!" We greeted in unison.