Lithium (Once Upon a Time)

Chapter Twenty-One: All I want for Christmas is you!

Have a wonderful fairytale Christmas! Love you all! Hope you enjoy this very special Christmas special chapter! xoxo ;)

Storybrooke, 24th December 2012...

Emma: Everyone was gathered in Granny's dinner! From Ruby, the Little Red Riding Hood, to Dr. Whale, Frankenstein.

I wondered when I'd finally be used to see so many of the characters I was used to see in cartoons, jumping from the pages of my illustrated children's books.

Mr. Gold and Belle also joined the occasion. It seemed that in Christmas Eve, everyone could forget the bad blood there was between us.

Still, the awkwardness of the occasion was floating in the air, thanks to Gold's son, who I found out to be Neal, my long lost first love. The father of my son.

Me and Gold found him in New York a few months ago and everything just became...Confuse, after that. I was so caught in the middle of my troubled past and mixed feelings of love and hatred I had for Neal. He was the reason he got me in jail, but he was also the reason for me to fulfill my role as the savior, plus, he gave me Henry.

For ten years, I hated that guy. His face echoed in my memory, only to remember me never to trust someone, never to let my guard down. But now, I was supposed to be grateful for what he did? After all, if he didn't get me to jail and we went to Tallahassee, I'd never find my family...

The truth is that I still don't feel like I found them...Maybe that's way I keep calling my mom "Mary Margaret" and my father "David". Because I still don't fit in the world they came from, in the madness of Henry's book.

I was a sceptic for so long...And just with one kiss...My life changed and I was dragged into a bloody mess. Nothing made sense...Nothing, from my parents being Snow White and Prince Charming to them having the same age as me and have all the other citizens in Storybrooke being fairytale characters!

The only thing that made sense was Henry. My love for him, which was the only certainty. And as mad as you may think I am...Regina. She made sense to me. She and the fights we shared made total sense. We were mothers fighting for a child's well-being, his love, his happiness. And even though I couldn't define the hot boiling mess of feelings I had for her. I knew they were strong, and that it was just a matter of time before I decided if they were positive or negative.

"Emma! It's almost midnight! We're going to open the presents!" Mary Margaret came rushing at me, filled with ecstasy! I widened my eyes, with a glass of apple cider in my hand, because I thought that she'd say Santa Klaus was coming. That would be the cherry in the top of this wild nonsense cake!

"Yeah, sure. Is Santa coming?" I asked, making fun of the situation!

"Emma!" David said with a smile.

"What?" I asked, begging for him not to be real to.

Henry grabbed my hand and looked at me, with a smiley face.

"Come on, Emma. Aren't you old enough to believe in Santa Klaus?" He asked. What a relief! I exhaled sharply, finally realizing that my sanity was safe.

"Okay, everybody, gather around! We have a toast tradition in the Enchanted Forest." Mary Margaret explained, gathering all of our friends and family in a giant circle.

I felt what Christmas felt like for the first time in my life! I felt that silly little chiming noise rushing from my belly towards my heart. The warmth of Granny's lasagna, the warmth of Henry's hand in mine. But still...My parents love was something messy. Was something that still needed to have more sense, or my relationship with Neal, who kept smirking at me and eventually playing with Henry. Still, even with all those smiles, the tree with shining lights, the presents and the warmth of the fireplace, hugs and kisses...something else was missing. Or rather...Someone!