Ice Heart

beautiful dream

I didn't liked it but I knew that he was right, but for some reason I didn't want him to see that. I turned around and looked up at him, I placed on hand on my hip and smiled challenging.

„Your sounding like you know me“

„I like to believe that I really do“

„and what makes you think that?“

„The tear“

Suddenly he placed a hand on my cheek and wiped a single tear away that didn't realized, I didn't know what to say or do.

„your afraid to let yourself feel something again because you don't want to get hurt again, I can understand that but believe me that the life is so much better if you have feelings. Maybe you will get hurt again but you are not alone, we all are here to help you if you need something. Sadness, hurt, happiness, fun, that is living, if you feel pain it shows that you are still alive.“

I still need couldn't say anything and just looked at him with wide eyes, but he just smiled and after he stroke my cheek one more time he let go of me and left me behind. I watched him go as he walked away, as he was gone I sunk down on my knees. I looked at the refection in the water and saw that I was crying "how did he managed to make me cry?" I hated to admit it but I know that he was right, he was so right. I placed my face in my hands and just let myself cry, after hearing Jea-Ha's words I made up my mind. I would open this gate and take back my feelings, but that's wasn't as easy as it sounds. I closed of my feelings for a very long time, if I make a mistake and open the gate to quickly I would get overwhelmed like a flood burying a village below. I could even die from this. I looked around and realized that behind the Waterfall was a cave, this would be perfect. No one would hear me and if something goes wrong I would die anyway so why not get buried by a crushing Stonewall. I jumped to the Waterfall and a small space between the wall and jumped through the Water, I didn't care if i was cold or wet. I set down with crossed legs and closed my eyes, I searched my mind for the gate and slowly started to open it. My whole life up to the point I was now was flowing past me, slowly. I suddenly could feel it again. The fun I once had and the happiness I felt, how sad I felt as Hiryuu got sick and how miserable I felt as he died because I loved him so much. All the emotions I should have felt in the moments after that, I saw my life with Yona and the others what it would be like if I had emotions. How much fun I would have had with Hak, Yona and Soo-Woon. How much hate I should have felt for Soo-Woon as he betrayed us, how sad I would have been as we left the Castle that was my home for so long, and how much I was disappointed as I meet the new Dragons and how much I learned to like them. Yona and Hak I learned to love like my own siblings, and the feelings I started to feel for him. As I slowly opened my eyes my vision got blurry and I lost consciousness.

I started to dream and like the ones I had before I saw Hiryuu, we were both sitting on the wall on the castle and looked at the setting sun. Without hasitation I leaned my head against his shoulder and with a low chuckle he pulled me a little closer, he stroke my back with his fingertips and I could feel the Goosebumps on my body. For a long moment neither of us said a word, this dream felt so real that I almost forgot that it was just a dream until Hiryuu broke the silence.

„The first moment I saw you in this forest I was so fascinated from you, I knew that you where something special. It didn't took me long to fall in love you, I never wanted you to leaf me. I was the happiest Men alive as you told me that you love me, we had to overcome so much sadness and pain but you never lost your beautiful smile. I loved it so much when you laughed. You where so talented, I loved to dance with you and when you where singing. You had such a lovely voice.“

„oh shut up, that's so emberresing“

„Haha don't be shy, I really loved it. But . . . After I was gone you closed yourself up completely, I was sad to see this. I hoped to reach you somehow and to tell you to let your feelings free, but you wouldn't. I'm so glad that someone was able to reach you, I'm so glad to see that your you're usual self as again.“

I set up again and looked at Hiryuu

"I lived for century's already and I will life for much longer, the life is boring enough so why shouldn't I have some fun once in a while.“

Hiryuu stared to laugh and I grinned to

„thats my girl“

I took my face in his hands and kissed me, it felt so real and I didn't want it to end but I know it would end. Hiryuu ended the Kiss to soon and grinned at me, his hands still cupping my face.

„I want you to enjoy your life to the fullest, over and over again. Laugh and be sad and love again“

„Love . . . I . . . I can't “

„Sure you can, I will always love you but I can't keep your heart all to myself anymore that wouldn't be fair of me. You will find someone you can love again, if you feel for someone then take this chance and find out where it leads you. Maybe you will get hurt but, and if that's so then you will stand up again and try it again. That is the Woman I fell in love with and that I will always love.“

„Hiryuu I . . . I will always love you too, I can't forget you and I don't ever will. I will take you with me forever, but I promise that I will start a new life from now on.“

„i will watch over you, take care my love “

„take care“