Dreams

One Night

1:20 am 27.12.2018

The cold wind was blowing on my face, making my legs shiver under the three blankets. I had just one memory in my mind, how much i would have been happy on knowing that you are sleeping three seats away from me. That was a long time ago, but i remembered it as if it was yesterday.

But all i feel now is, cold hatred . How could you react like nothing ever happened and smile at me. How could you?, it hurts a lot knowing that i can't scream at your face, telling why i hate you this much. But you know this, don't you?, that i feel this?

I hope you do, for the last time. For the last time, please understand that i am broken so much already and don't show your smiling face at me, because all i can see is the inhumane words thrown at me by you.

I was happy, without any expectations. I was happy with my diary and earphones. I was happy with my three blankets. I was happy with my cold nose. I was happy with the warmth of my friends. Please don't make me wish for warm hugs and moon light poetry, please don't make me wish for long cozy conversations in this dark night. Please don't make me wish for you. For i am still a broken mess and i don't pray on breaking again.

1:32 am