Can I Say Goodbye?

39 'N'

Have you ever been at war with your self?

Have you ever felt alone?

Have you ever felt like everything that you do doesn't matter?

Have you ever hated yourself so much you wish you never existed?

I have.

When I am sad, I don't just frown I become numb just the way a person who has died becomes.

When I am lost, I don't just become confused. I lose myself just the way a person does in a never ending maze.

When I cry, I don't just cry I shed tears. I bleed them out like blood from the cut of a deep wound that will never heal.

None of you will ever realise the pain of a person who doesn't know where they belong, who doesn't know how to live or doesn't want to live but has to anyway. You'll never understand what it feels like to be completely lost and helpless and not be able to do a single thing about it.

You'll never understand and I'll never be able to tell you this until then.

Let me burn in the fire of my desires.

Let me drown in the depths of my fear.

Let me destroy myself so everything can be clear.

Let me destroy myself...