Can I Say Goodbye?

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Just like a mirror, I shattered last year

I was tired of everything and everyone including myself

And then I spent 5 months trying to find old me and the person that I used to be

This year I decided to pick up my broken pieces and fix myself

Today I felt like I could accomplish anything this year. I felt that I could be the old me again

But then of course, how could I be so happy?

How could I be so wrong?

Everyone could still see my flaws

I cut my hair short and dyed it

Even started wearing coloured contact lens

But they'd still look at me with their old judgemental eyes

How will I ever escape that?

"You've got issues, until you don't fix it, I dont want to talk to you." You said it with those horrible judgemental eyes.

All it took was one sentence to destroy all of my confidence and break me again. It destroyed all the courage I had to fix myself and make things right

I thought that I could start this year with my slate clean. That everyone would forget about me.

I was wrong, so wrong...