used | jung jaehyun ✔️

eighteen

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hyesun entered her house switching into her slippers. hyunjoon had came to greet her but realized that; one, she didn't have drinks and two, she looked as if she had just gotten heartbroken.

"hyesun..are you okay?" hyunjoon asked her but the girl simply nodded her head before pushing past him and walking into the hallway and into her room.

she closed the door behind her, throwing her phone and wallet onto her bedside table before sitting at the edge of her bed, replaying exactly what she had heard earlier.

"used me.." she mumbled, "he..used me? for jisun?"

hyesun was feeling feelings that she didn't know how to comprehend at all. she felt hurt, betrayed, upset, anger, and anything that falls under those categories.

why did it hurt so much?

people have always liked jisun over hyesun. it wasn't anything new. so why did her knowing this information hurt so much?

it was like a stab to the heart. except it would leave a scar that you would only be able to place a bandaid on but it won't go away. it'll stay.

"and i'm just hyesun..." she repeated again and again until it was carved into her brain, "huh..so is this.."

she looked up at her ceiling, attempting to stop any tears from falling, "is that what a heartbreak feels like?"

back at the café, jaehyun's friends stared at the boy baffled.

"she's just hyesun??" taeyong repeated in shock, "you've been spending so much time with her though"

"god let me finish you idiots" jaehyun sighed before continuing, "hyesun is hyesun. and that's what makes me like her. jisun likes sicheng and sicheng likes her. i realized that i shouldn't be even trying to get her when i already lost from the start. to be honest though, even throughout the time i thought i liked jisun, i caught myself thinking and worrying about hyesun a lot more than i would have thought. when i began talking and hanging out with her more without any of us watching to murder each other, i liked those moments. even if we were just sitting in silence, i liked it because i was with hyesun. people can say whatever but hyesun is everything i want"

explaining feelings is so difficult. it's hard for one to comprehend. having to tell the difference between whether or not you love someone or if you are just simply infatuated with them.

jaehyun could never deny the feelings he felt for jisun though. he can clearly remember the first time he laid eyes on the girl and the rush of butterflies he felt from get. but he knew well, that those feelings felt so minuscule compared to what he felt with hyesun.

they were incomparable.

his friends just listened to him, shocked that he had such feelings about a girl he considered to be someone he disliked.

"i like hyesun. i feel at peace with her. i really do like her and i really want to tell her the truth. even if she ends up hating me for the rest of my life, she needs to know"

"never knew you could have such feelings" taeyong laughed a little, "so are you going to confess as well?"

"uhm..i don't know to be honest, i think i rather her know about me using her first then see how that goes since i know she's probably going to be mad"

and before one of the boys could respond, the worker yelled out a name, "order for hyesun!"

jaehyun's head immediately whipped around causing all the boys to laugh