Sander Sides Angsty Oneshots

Jealous

/Trigger warnings/ implied death, heartbreak, much sad, very angst

I'm jealous of the rain

That falls upon your skin
It's closer than my hands have been
I'm jealous of the rain

It's been a few months since we broke up but i'm still not over it. I miss his warmth at night, and how he used to laugh at my stupid jokes.

I'm jealous of the wind
That ripples through your clothes
It's closer than your shadow
Oh, I'm jealous of the wind

I'm still not over him. He was the light of my life, and now I'm left in the dark.

'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive

He didn't do anything wrong, I did, be he still apologised. 

But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery

I keep hoping that he will come back, but I doubt it.

It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

I hate that he is smiling and laughing with his friends while i'm stuck here with nothing, no one! I'm all alone and he's so happy

I'm jealous of the nights
That I don't spend with you
I'm wondering who you lay next to
Oh, I'm jealous of the nights

I can barely sleep at night. I end up crying myself to sleep in the early hours of morning, barely getting any sleep.

I'm jealous of the love
Love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share
Oh, I'm jealous of the love

I can't believe that he found someone else, replaced me so easily. It feels like I meant nothing to him, even though he meant the world to me.

'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give

I hope he's happy, with his new love and friends, he deserves it.

And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive

He kept apologising when we broke up, even though it was all my fault.

But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery

I still have dreams where he comes back, or where he never left. Sweet and happy dreams where we are still together, and in love.

It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

I hate how jealous I am. It's not fair how he can move on and I'm still stuck on him.

As I sink in the sand
Watch you slip through my hands

I know i've already lost him, he's gone, moved on to another man.

Oh, as I die here another day, yeah
'Cause all I do is cry behind this smile

Other people probably think i'm over him, I have a pretty good fake smile from all the practice i've had.

I wished you the best of
All this world could give

I hope you are happy with your new love.

And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive

Don't worry, I'll be gone soon too.

But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery

I can finally be over you

It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

Goodbye

I-I-It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

With all my love, Roman

That's not how I expected this to end, but that's how it is going too. I'm also going to start updating every Sunday and Thursday, and will try very hard to keep to this schedule. I hope you liked the chapter, bye!