Sander Sides Angsty Oneshots

Feel something

Based on the song Feel Something by Jaymes Young.

/Trigger Warnings/ self harm (cutting), blood, heartbreak.
Very much angst, you have been warned, now please enjoy

I don't care if it hurts

I'll pay my weight in blood

To feel my nerves wake up

Logan was sitting on the floor of his bathroom, a bloody razor in one hand, the other arm covered in blood and cuts. It hurt, but he didn't care, he just needed to prove that he could feel something, anything, that he wasn't a robot.

So love me now or let me go

Let me feel these highs and lows

Before the doors to my heart close

Logan knew he loved him, but he couldn't tell him. He needed to get over it, he would never love him back. He's previous lover left him anyways, maybe Logan was just unlovable.

Touch me someone

I'm too young to feel so

Numb, numb, numb, numb

Logan needed to feel, he needed to feel loved, but he wasn't, at least that's what he told himself. That's what he said to him before he left.

You could be the one to

Make me feel something, something

Make me feel something, something

'There has to be someone that loves me' Logan thought, now lying on his bed, his arm covered in bandages. He couldn't think clearly, he must be delusional to think that someone would love him. But what he didn't know was that just next door there was another person who also wanted to be loved.

Show me that you're human, oh

Make me feel something, something

Patton sat alone in his room, wanting to tell Logan how he felt but, he couldn't, Logan wouldn't like him, would he?

I never thought I'd miss the bittersweet

He missed having someone to cuddle.

I gave those years away

And lost my sense of taste

After the night both Patton and Logan were left by their lovers, they both wished to be held be someone, to be shown love and to show they could love back.

'Cause all of your lovers eventually fade

And leave you alone in the bed you made

And all of the colors that bleed to gray leave nothing

'He would just leave me like everyone else did' thought Patton.

Touch me someone

I'm too young to feel so

Numb, numb, numb, numb

They both craved touch, but neither knew of the others longing for it.

So give me just enough to

Make me feel something, something

Make me feel something, something

Show me that you're human, oh

Make me feel something, something

Patton finally got up, ready for rejection but ready nonetheless. He walk slowly to Logans door and knocked. The sudden noise startled Logan as he got up to see who it was. As he opened the door Patton was going over the words in his head. As soon as the door was open all the way Patton blurted out "Logan, I love you!" Logan was startled yet again, but stuttered "well, I-I do, do t-too" Patton was surprised by his answer, but flung himself forwards to give Logan a hug.

So if you're gonna stay, then stay

But if you're gonna go

Make sure that you hurt me just enough to

Logan hugged back, happy to finally have someone, but still nervous of the possibility of him leaving him as well.

Make me feel something, something

Make me feel something, something

Show me that I'm human, oh

Make me feel something, something

Make me feel something, something

They spent the rest of the night cuddling on Logan's bed, simply happy to have each other.

Ok wow that was not good, but there's a happy ending. Don't be expecting a happy ending all the time, this is the first chapter, so it's not too angsty, but it will get much, much sadder, trust me.