Sander Sides Angsty Oneshots

Nightmares

This chapter was requested by @StressinDestress , I hope you enjoy it!

/Trigger warnings/ Verbal abuse, panic attack. (Seriously, I got bad anxiety from writing/ proofreading the panic attack, if you have an anxiety disorder please read with care. I marked where it starts/ends, if you've had a panic attack you probably know whats going on already)

"You're the worst!"

"Why do you even try?"

"Fat!"

"Ugly!"

Roman ran to his room, tears running down his face. 'How could they say such mean things' he thought to himself, sitting on his bed, trying to figure out what he did to the others that made them want to say those terrible things. 'Well, maybe they just had a bad day, tomorrow should be better'

The next morning at breakfast the others completely ignored him.

"Hey guys" Roman said, trying to get their attention

"Did you hear something?" Patton asked, his voice filled with revulsion.

"No, I don't think so" Logan replied, glaring at Roman loathingly.

"Last I checked He couldn't string together two words, that idiot!" Virgil added, animosity in every word he spoke

Roman held back tears as he left the room, going back to the only place he felt safe, his room.

He spent the day there, feeling unwanted and unloved. That night he cried himself to sleep, dejected and alone.

(Start of panic attack. He is thinking that he is dying, before Virgil comes in and helps him through it)

He woke up and couldn't breath. 'What is happening!!' He thought frantically. He was hyperventilating and soon wasn't thinking clearly 'I'm dying!! I need help! Why can't I get help. Oh no, this is bad, this is very very bad, I don't like this, help! Someone help me!' He wasn't able to scream, or even whisper for help, and he was freaking out. He tried to control his breathing, but it wasn't working 'I can't breath, oh god I can't breathe i'm gonna die, I don't want to die, I need help!' He was trapped in his thoughts, unable to figure out what was going on or call for help. He tried to get up to find help, standing up from his bed for a second, before crashing to the floor, his knees giving out. 'Oh nononononono, i'm going to die here, alone and nobody will know, oh god I don't want to die!'

Virgil was walking to the kitchen to get a midnight snack when he heard a thud from what sounded like Romans room. He ran upstairs, wanting to make sure he was okay.

He opened the door and found Roman on the floor, hyperventilating.

"Hey, Roman, can you hear me?"

Roman looked up tears running down his face. 'Oh no, he's gonna yell at me more, nonono' Roman tried to move away from Virgil, who realized what was happening, Roman was having a panic attack.

"It's okay, I'm not going to hurt you, i'm here to help you" Virgil said gently, "May I come closer?"

Roman shook his head, still convinced that Virgil was going to hurt him.

"Okay, Roman, you having a panic attack, you need to control your breathing. Try this, breath in for 4 seconds, hold for 6, breath out for 8."

Roman tried, but failed. He tried a few more times before finally getting better control of him breathing.

"May I come over there now?" Virgil asked, seeing Roman calm down a little. He nonned and Virgil carefully came over, sitting by Roman. "You got this, you're safe, just focus on your breathing"

(End of panic attack)

After 10 minutes Roman was breathing normally, and was leaning against Virgil, exhausted. Virgil held Roman, making sure he felt safe as he drifted into a light sleep, his body still recovering from the sudden adrenaline rush. They stayed like that all night, Virgil having fallen asleep leaning against Romans bed.

The next morning Patton found them on the floor, sleeping peacefully cuddling each other. He gently closed the door as he went to tell Logan, excited that they were cuddling.

At breakfast Roman was surrounded by the things he loved most, Virgil, Patton, Logan and waffles.

I hope you enjoyed the chapter, and another thanks to @StressinDestress for requesting it! I hope the panic attack part was okay, and that the little note was helpful if you skipped it. Thanks for reading and I'll see you next time, bye!