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4 Stages How You Made Me Feel

This is the summary about how you made me feel,

1. Nothing
I don't know about you, but I still remember it (clearly) the first day we met. You were just another acquaintance.
For the record, you approaching me at first, okay? You're the one who came up to me--act so mysteriously--asking for my hand and casually walk away. I don't even remember your name !

2. Curious
I don't know about you, but I still remember it (clearly) the days we became closer. The day we talked this and that, and occasionally I caught you stared at me (...or I thought so).

3. Comfy
I don't know about you, but I still remember it (clearly) the day we got comfortable with each other. We told each other's problem and just teased about it later--until one of us gave a death glare--.
After those (mercilessly) tease all the time, you're still my 'must-person to tell' about anything.

4. Affection
I don't know about you, but I still remember it (clearly) the day, I admit that I have some certain affection only for you.
Took me 1 year and half, to just embrace the rhythm and sing with it. To admit I had fallen for my very good friend, is really not the easy part. To hide it, is stressing me out.
Sometimes, I wish we could just leave it and moving on. But at the same time, I could never stand, seeing you go far away... leaving me here..alone..cold..broke...

I don't know about you, but I still remember it clearly, the day you told me you return my feeling, the day you held my hand tight, the day you hugged me, the day we shared laugh,

The day, we became, each other's strenght....
....and of course, the day you backtrack.. the day I (finally) knew..

It was all a lie.

Bandung, 3rd October 2017

8.54 PM 

It broke me so hard. It still does.