Behind Broken Walls (Zarry) GOING UNDER MAJOR EDITING*****

Chapter 3

I layed down on the bed outside on the balcony watching the rest of the boys play in the pool below me.

I don't feel like hanging out. I never do.

I don't go in the pool anymore. I'm afraid of water. Plus it reminds me of Perrie. Perrie. Perrie. Perrie. Always on my mind.

She taught me how to swim. I remember her wrapping her arms around my neck as mine slithered around her waist.

I just wish I could forget. I want to try so hard but I can't. I want to so bad. I hate being like this.

People think that I do this on purpose. But I don't. I feel numb without her. Like I can't move. I just don't feel anything or want to do anything.

I want to try.

Zayn actions speak louder than words! Get up! Get up!

I shakily got up from the bed walking myself down the stairs to the pool from the balcony. When I got down the stairs I sat next to the chair that was close to the pool and watched everyone play.

Niall was on top of Liam but turned around smiling when he saw me. "Hi Zayn. You want to play with us!" I chuckled hearing his laugh. His laugh was something that reminded me of a child. Which is the greatest thing about Niall there is.

"Ugh........

"Guys he doesn't know how to swim." Liam chuckled. I rolled my eyes smiling slightly.

"It's okay Zayn I'll help you." Harry said swimming towards the end of the pool letting out his hand for me to take.

"No-

"Zayn it's fine. Let me help you." He said softly causing me to get goosebumps.

I nodded holding onto his hand gasping when he pushed me in causing me to go down under into the water.

Harry pulled me back up laughing and I growled punching him lightly in the shoulder knowing I didn't put a lot of force.

"Why'd you do that?"

"It's okay Zayn. Do you trust me." Harry said wrapping his arms around my waist. His green eyes were brighter when it was covered in water.

"What?" Zayn stop! Wake up! Wake up!

"I said do you trust me."

I then realized that Harry's hands weren't around me and I was floating in the pool.

My eyes widened as I looked at Harry.

"Harry hold me right now!" I screamed.

He chuckled. "It's okay. Im here. I won't drop you." He said slightly putting his hand on my waist.

I was breathing rapidly as I closed my eyes trying to calm myself.

I'm not going to die. I'm not going to die.

I jumped when a ball hit me in the face. Knowing who it was I threw the ball back at Louis and he giggled biting back a laugh.

"Sorry we needed to get your attention." Niall said.

I rolled my eyes looking back at Harry.

"You guys want to go out tonight. It's almost six." Liam said.

Harry's hands were still wrapped around my waist. "Do you want to go Zayn?" Harry asked me.

"Yea. It'll be fun. I'll be able to take my mind off things." I nodded still unsure myself. If I want to get better, it involves me not drinking.