Behind Broken Walls (Zarry) GOING UNDER MAJOR EDITING*****

Chapter 2

OMG did you see Niall's Ice Bucket Challenge!!o HIS BODY IS FUCKING SEXY!!!! I WISH I COULD DATE HIM!!!!! Don't judge. I'm not a whore!!!

When Harry and I finally got in the hotel he followed me to my room opening the door for me. I stood there in shock when I saw everyone in the living room. I groaned as they all stared at me.

"Go ahead. Lecture me." I groaned. To many tears have fallen from my eyes this week and I didn't want to shed anymore.

"Why Zayn?!" Liam yelled.

I flinched holding tightly onto my jacket. "I'm sorry." I mumbled biting my lip.

No tears. No tears!

"Sorry doesn't cut it-

"Babe shut up!" Niall yelled letting go of Liam's hand. Liam looked at him shocked. I was surprised Niall was sticking up for me. I've been nothing but a douche to him. "You guys used to be best friends. What changed?" Niall said frustratedly.

"Him." Those words cut me more than a razor ever can. My closest friend that understood what I was going through said the words if never thought come out of his mouth.

Liam's eyes softened with guilt. "Zayn I-

"I'm sorry. Your right." I sobbed. "I'm a mess!!" I yelled throwing a glass cup at the wall. "I'm a fuck up!" I cried. Since I was still dizzy from the drinking I tripped over my foot and Harry behind me, grabbed my waist pulling me to his chest saying soothing words into my ears. "I miss her!" I yelled. "I.....I miss her! I'm so alone." I said feeling weak to the knees.

I just didn't feel anything. I felt numb. I know without Perrie there's no point in living. She was the one from beginning to end.

She had her end which should've been mine as well. I should've died with her.

Harry still whispered words in my ears and I found myself falling to sleep. I laid my head on his shoulders closing my eyes as he picked me up.

This was why I drunk before sleeping. If it wasn't for Corona I would be awake all night for sure.

Harry POV'S

After I put Zayn in bed I went into the living room seeing Liam rub his hands over his face on the couch.

He sighed. "I screwed up. Big time."

"Well at least you know that what you said was a dick move, because I didn't feel like yelling at you anyways. I would've just punched you." I smiled, sickenly sweet.

"Niall hates me, you hate me. Louis is quiet as normal. I just......its like we're all leaving as dead people. We're different. Zayn and I used to be close. I used to be there for him. Niall is trying to pull everyone together and I see that and I feel so bad that we can't because I know that's what he wants. Louis doesn't even talk or make any sassy remarks unless someone pisses him off and you........you've been friend zone since day one just floating in the life of Zayn quietly." Liam chuckled softly.

"I'm going to stay at his tonight." I said ignoring Liam's last remark.

Liam nodded about to head out the door but stopped. "But seriously though, Harry.......please help Zayn. He needs you" Liam said then left the room.

"Today was a long day." I sighed rubbing my hands in my hair that hasn't been cut in four months. Aka ever since Perrie died.

After it happened, I stopped everything just to help Zayn. And I still am. Everyone knows about how much I've loved Zayn but he's never noticed. I almost lost him tonight and I've never been so scared for my life. My life with him. I love him so much it hurts. I never thought Zayn would grieve for so long but then I never thought he would heal easily. He needs someone. And that someone is going to be me.