The Noise Inside My Head

depression

when the pain came hugging me tightly
I have no power to release myself from this pain
when I struggled to release myself From these shackles, the more I fell in pain

I would love to let go of all this fatigue, this pain, the pain that always grips me tightly with the root root called pain
I tried and tried again
but I failed for the umpteenth time

is this a punishment for me because I have a very deep sense for someone ...
is this a warning to me so that I don't get what I want in my life?
even though this is absolute happiness for me?

does this reality have to be like this
a lot of suffering
a lot of pain
lots of empty feelings
a lot of loneliness
Do I have to grab all this and feel it all?
Are these conditions that I live in order to get someone I love?
should it be like this?
Should I be hurt?
if it really has to be like this ...
then I will live it even though my steps are stuck in living it

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