The Noise Inside My Head

forbidden

I know its forbidden for me to do this thing
Writing some sensual poetry and even wild poetry.
I'm trying to explore myself with beautiful words..
Its an art for me,at least for me.
When I wrote the sensual poetry, some people had panicked attacks..
They said,"what the hell this sinner doing?"
Oh,yes I don't wanna lie..I am a sinner..I'm just a human being..
Sometimes I like the negatives things,..
"So what?!..that's normal!", I said to myself

Well hell no girl!,that was not normal for woman like you!.
You knew the rules,you knew the tradition!
Well,of course I knew!,I was born and raised with all these traditional things..
And you know what?,I don't even have my freedom to speech!

Well,of course no girl!
You knew the rules!
You should obey the rules
You should not doing that!
Hanging out or even talking with other men,even they just friends that you knew for long time a go.
Hell no girl!,obey..obey..that's the rule!

Yeah,that words always said out loud
Is it ever gonna change?
No!
We knew where we lives!
And I wanna be not okay this time
I wanna be free
You don't know what it's like to be like me!
So,shut up!
Don't judge me,because you don't understand me!

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