Listen To Your Heart || Rosékook

a serious topic.

Hey, babes, It's me coming in for a second update. Though, this isn't a regular update.

I would like to get something off my chest.

Some/Most of you may be familiar with the passing of former member, Kim Jonghyun, of K-Pop band, SHINee, which took place December 18th, 2017. Jonghyun had previously suffered from depression and, unfortunately, the dark side won him over.

I've been a SHINee stan for six years and a Jonghyun-biased fan for the same amount of time. Every single night, I cry myself to sleep and say, "why wasn't it me and not him? Why wasn't it me who suffered and not him?" Because I loved him that much. And now that I can see him by only listening to his angelic voice and reviewing the memories makes me wanna break down.

There have been seversl occasions where I just wanted to leave this Earth and join him in the afterlife. Whenever those thoughts cross my mind, I start to cry.

His music saved my life. His existence saved my life.

But why couldn't I save his?

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