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Recap
"I care about you alot and your actually the only person i have ever cared about okay and with the mention of this guys name you tense up so you need to tell me just please" he urges.
"Fine okay okay Cameron Jake is my ex-boyfriend" i exclaim.
"And why the hell do you tense when his name is said?" he asks.
"Because Cameron Jake tried to kill me"
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"He-he what?" He stutters out.
"Cameron can we speak about anything else it's in the past and really i would like to keep it that way" I demand.
"No Scarlett we're speaking about it now. You called me by his name this morning okay, now we're speaking about this now so just please tell me" He begs.
"Please i don't want to bring up the past. I hate thinking about it and right now i am very confused that i even mentioned his name this morning so please let it go"
"If i open up to you will you do the same?" He asks.
"You open up to me?"
"Yes there are things that i have never told anyone and i am willing to tell you if you will tell me what went down with you and Jake" He debates.
"Fine deal" I accept. Suddenly his arms wrap themselves around my waist and i'm brought on to his lap. Looking up at him skeptically he looks down and smiles shyly.
"Brings me comfort?" he answers but comes out more as a question.
"This place i explained is where i like to think but that's not the only thing. Um this is where i used to take my sister. She was 8 when she um well when she died". He pauses and takes a breath, i wrap my arms around him hoping it bringing him comfort. "It was my fault you know her death. My parents they left me to take car of her it was a Saturday and i was really tired so since it was a Saturday i slept in forgetting i was looking after her. She came in to my room begging to go to the park but i stupidly said that i was to tired and told her to go back to bed. When i got up i went to her room to tell her we could go now but found no one finally coming to the realization that she went to the park without me i ran there as fast as i could. Unfortunately she wasn't there i started asking parents and some of the children but they all told me the same 'no we haven't seen her' that's when the panic set in. Running around random streets just hoping to find her that's when i heard sirens police and ambulances. So running towards the noise i find a group of people crowed round something and paramedics trying to get through, the bad feeling that went through my stomach knew it wasn't going to be good. The feeling in my stomach was right in the middle of the crowd was Lottie getting CPR. Then they just stopped which led me to think that she was fine that she began breathing again but then the words came out the woman who gave her the CPR 'Time of death 2.36'. I begged the paramedics to keep trying but all they said was that they couldn't do anymore. My sister was hit by a car specifically a hit and run. That's why i am the way i am because i loved her and she left me my own little sister left me and if anything it should have been me i was supposed to look after her but i decided to sleep" He cries in to my shoulder. Pulling back i hold him at arms length.
"Cameron stop seriously.Are you saying that you knew your sister was going to go herself and get hit by a car because you didn't so that makes it not your fault. Yes it was your responsibility to look after her but she did run away and you wouldn't have known that. Now please just say this 'it was not my fault" I demand.
"No i'm not saying that because Scarlett it was my fault. My parents won't even admit that it was my fault and that is what pisses me off more because it is my fault" He repeats.
"No it's not your fault okay, Cameron none of this is your fault please just believe me it's not your fault" I tell him honestly.
"Thank you for actually sitting her and listening" He says.
"I'm always going to be here okay just talk to me whenever you need to okay?"
"Thanks and you know that first night you slept next to me was the first time i went a night without having a nightmare it was weird. I woke up on my own and wasn't drowned in sweat" He admits. I look up at him in shock.
I stopped his nightmares?
"I don't think i can sleep without you again" He whispers and tightens his arms around me and puts his head in the croose of my neck.
"You won't have to" I whisper back.
"Thank you Lettie"
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