Trappers 2: The truth

Chapter 22

Maria POV

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White space. I haven't seen this in a while. I sat up from off the ground and looked around until I saw him. He was standing there with the biggest grin on his face. I smiled back at him. "Marcus." I stood up and into his arms. I haven't seen him since he stopped visiting my dreams a month after his death. "Marcus I-"

"Shh," he soothed. "It's okay. Everything is going to be okay."

Tears rolled down my face. "I'm...I'm barely holding on. You left and now I feel like I'm falling apart. I need you."

He chuckled. "What do you need me for? You've already got so many people around you Maria. All of them want to help you. You have to let them in."

"They won't understand," I sniffed.

"How can they if you don't explain it to them? Maria, depression is serious. You can't keep pretending you're okay if you're really not. I should know right? We were depressed together after all. Just because I went through it with you and they didn't doesn't mean they don't understand. You've went through more pain most people can stand. You were raped multiple times, your father and mother both left you a huge burden, you fell in love and got your heart broken many times, you were left in the dark as your little sister got abused. You fell and no one caught you." I squeezed onto him. "They won't know unless you tell them. Our daughter needs to know what strength is but she'll only know it once you finally show her it's okay to be weak too. Stop being afraid of the people who love you."

"Everyone I let in leaves me. My parents, you. I can't-"

"Maria," he pulled away and looked me in my eyes. "Don't let the pain win. Don't let fear win. You can do it."

I sniffed. "Is that why after a year you finally decided to see me again?"

"No," he wiped my tears away. "Not entirely anyways. I had to leave the first time because you needed to be there for our daughter. If I kept coming to you in your dreams you wouldn't accept my death. You would've let this illness win."

"I promised you I wouldn't," I sniffed. "Do you hate what I did? Let Harmony get attach to him."

He smiled. "I love you so much more for what you did. Sucks I won't get to be there for my baby girl but at least she's got a second chance at happiness. You too Maria. I know you still love him with everything you have. All I want is for my two ladies to be happy." I remained quiet, not sure what to say. I felt his lips on my head. "I never knew love until I met you. I don't regret you or anything that happened. I just want you to be happy again."

"I love you too," I choked. "But I guess I've got to let you go for good now huh? No more dreams like these?"

"I think it's because I hung around so long you can't move on. Just make sure my baby girl lives a long and happy life." I hugged him for the last time. The one man who connected to my soul a way no one ever has before. "I'll love you forever and always Maria."

"I love you forever Marcus."

"Maria. Maria." I opened my eyes and found myself staring up at Dallas. "You fell asleep." I looked around and saw I was sitting on my couch with the movie end credits rolling. "You...okay?"

"I'm fine," I said going into my room and cleaning up what I'm sure is a tear filled face. It's been about a week or two since Harmony got out the hospital. Dallas spends a lot amount of time over here. He brings KJ with him but he's had a big attitude ever since the little fight. Santi makes sure he's far away from his little sister. As much of a bitch I can be I would never want them to hate each other like this. KJ is still their older brother. I can't believe this girl hates me so much she instilled all this hate in her own kid. Dallas just better fix this. I'm tired of mini fights breaking out in my house. I went back out into the living room where Dallas was getting his stuff. "Heading out?"