My Innocent Love

Chapter 7 The Crash Of Hearts...

If I thought after knowing about her disease my mind and heart would be at peace, then I had to tell myself that I was the biggest idiot to even think that because after that day my despondent state only intensified. I was fifteen then and I bet I was thinking more than any adult these days, but I can't help it. Raisha Sinha has malfunctioned my brain in an effective way and the irony is, I don't even feel guilty over this.

But I do feel guilt-stricken when I see her unhappy. Partially, I'm the cause too of this sadness on her face. If only I could tell her that how much I respected her then maybe, she'd feel better. If only I could say to her that she's the strongest girl I've ever encountered, then she'll feel her bravery is worth. If only I could say to her that she's the prettiest of all then maybe, she won't bother about what people think about her falling appearance.

The tragedy is we debate over so many things to say but when we must bring out, we can't do so and same is my condition. Despite knowing that I have a bond with her that transcends beyond words, I still can't go near her and it kills me to see her so lonely, and torned. Probably, she wondered all the time that how can everyone treat her this way when she's not at fault? Her only fault is that she has too much love in her heart to give and no one wants that love...because they think they're too superior than her but if she asked me this someday then I'll only tell her that, none deserve her love, friendship or affection because she deserves those only who know how to value a gem like her.

People with huge egos are undeserving of Raisha's love. I won't even bring my name in that list because even I don't. If I did then maybe, I would have made her happy by now. And since I didn't do any such thing, I'd like to keep myself away too from the category of people who could love this fragile angel.

On that Saturday night when Dad returned home, he summoned Mom and I and declared the most horrible order I ever heard. He was shutting down the branch of his company in Lucknow and shifting the headquarters to Delhi permanently. It will be a few days for that job and once its done, we are supposed to leave the city forever and reside in Delhi.

My heart stopped right there and then hearing him. He didn't even ask me if want to leave my school or not. He just decided to throw me into a new place and after doing everything, he just declared it like there was nothing wrong.

"But Dad...," I opened my mouth to argue and there he blasted in a chilling tone, "Aayush, is it necessary that I've to know whether you like my decision or not. Its final that after your final exams, we are moving to Delhi. And even if you don't like it, then I don't care. You will do, what I will decide. My manager will bring you the new school form, fill it and post accordingly. At least, you are not going to be a disappointment if you go to a place I decide."

"Viraj ....," Mom wanted to deny, but he showed his palm to her and walked away.

"I don't want to go," I protested.

"I know. But we can't argue with him on anything. You know your Dad, once he makes up his mind, no one can change it." She replied.

"I can only if you allow me to open my mouth. But you won't because you're afraid as hell." I said in fact.

"I just don't want you to be at loggerheads, Aayush."

I let out a humorless chuckle and mocked, "I don't remember him being my best friend forever. When was the last time he actually called me son or even asked me if I was fine or not?"

"Give him time, please."

"From past few years of my life I don't think I've done anything else but give him time."

She looked at me with sad eyes and I decided to leave, but I don't know what came over me when I reached the stair case, turned around and warned.