Consumed || Shawn Mendes ||

4th Of July.

I couldn't believe i had let my two co workers talk me into coming out on the fourth of July.

But here i was waiting in the back of the car with them both in the front driving down to Venice Beach. I looked out at the window as the girls talked loudly about all their plans for tonight and how they couldn't wait to snag some prime celebrities that were rumored to be attending this private beach party that the red haired got invited through some connect. Gotta love that in LA. I guess that explained both of their slutty choice of outfits. I chose to keep it simple in a white off the shoulder top that stopped to my midriff and my high waist light blue denim jeans. I quickly snapped a selfie and sent it to the Greek god. I found myself missing him as soon as he left after two weeks of us being inseparable, we decided that we worked best without a label but apart of me now wanted us to be something.  My subconscious was once again attacking me and I needed it to stop so I reluctantly agreed to tag along with them.

After about a two hours in traffic we finally were here at the party. Everything looked so expensive in white and gold themed colors and sparkles everywhere from the banners to being wrapped around the palm trees. I was glad I kept it simple with my clothing. As we walked in we were instantly handed blow horns, tiaras, and cosmos instantly by a cocktail waitress who was dressed in an American flag bikini and shades. She then disappeared to attend the other guests and the girls quickly drank their drinks and dragged me as they went searching for more drinks. I hung on to my drink as they pushed and squeezed through the sea of bodies, I felt so out of place. Once we stopped I quickly swallowed my cosmo to mute my thoughts and the girls cheered on as they handed me a shot and we clinked glasses and downed that, then I saw a mojito now pushed in my hands. Jesus these girls could down some drinks, I followed suit swallowing my mojito. We cheered and I was once again being dragged through the bodies and up some stairs that was then led through a velvet rope. We got to the robe and the huge bouncer looked over at us once and the raven haired worked her magic and we were allowed to pass.

After dancing for almost what seemed like forever I needed to take a real break, these girls were so amped and I tried to keep up. But now I was sitting in a small section resting my feet watching everybody as I slipped my heels off. My body was damp in sweat and I was beginning to feel the drinks make my vision hazy. I took out my phone to try to gain some focus. I called the Greek god feeling a little frisky having momentary flashes of our first night in Athens. He didn't answer. This wasn't unusual but for some reason I felt a ping of annoyance wash through me and I called once more this time it went to voicemail. I didn't like this pitted feeling I was getting, I decided to put my heels back on and I walked to the back of the beach house and opened the glass sliding door where the beach stood freely in the short distance. As I walked out I saw the cluster of people smoking and drinking and socializing, I saw one of the cocktail waitresses flirting with a guy as I walked over and just grabbed a shot and downing that and then grabbing a cosmo and turning my attention to the beach. I needed a breather from the party, and to get this drinking controlled. 

slipping my heels off and drunkenly stumbling towards the water allowing the cool summer breeze kissing my skin, the smell of the salt water made me fall into a tranquil like state. I always loved being by the beach, it made me feel closer to my mom when i would feel alone. She always loved the beach but she would say California had a special sweet spot in her heart. So i grew to love it all in the same. As i heard the waves crashing into the sand and lightly touching my toes i felt calm and tranquil. I walked along the water away from the party, forgetting about the girls, the Greek god, and my own subconscious as well. Then my phone began to ring, i quickly silenced it and kept on my path to nowhere, everything seemed dark and just became oblivious to anything surrounding me that wasn't the water touching my feet and echoing my hearing. 

"Hi." 

I stopped in my tracks and my head whipped so fast to the voice, that im sure i gave myself whiplash. I stumbled over a bit losing my balance. 

This couldn't be possible. 

"Hello Shawn." I said as he walked closer towards me. 

I couldn't breath.  

Why was he here? How was he here? Is this a joke? 

"Fancy running into you at the beach of all places. Are you okay?" He asked raising his eyebrow a little as i stumbled to stand straight and away from him. 

I hiccuped, "Im fine. What are you doing here? Dont you have a tour?"

He laughed as he ran his finger through his hair and he looked up over at me smiling.  Dammit Mendes dont do that please. My body got the all to familiar ache. I needed to get away from him. But i couldn't seem to bring myself to move. 

"I was actually at a friends party and i stepped out to make a call. I ended up just walking in the sand, clear my mind before my show tomorrow. Then i saw you walking along the water, i didn't know if i should say anything but i did."

"Oh well ill let you get back to your meditating or whatever." I said i turning back to head towards the party. He grabbed my elbow making me turn to face him and then he backed away a small distance before he let go on my elbow. Again i couldn't move. What the hell was happening too me? 

He smelled good.

 I missed that scent. 

What is going on? This wasn't happening, it couldn't. 

But our eyes locked and the fire in my stomach ignited like an inferno. 

"Im sorry about whatever i did in London to make you leave." He said in a hushed tone. I felt his breath on my cheek that was how close we were. 

I took a deep breath in and under my eyelashes i could see those eyes, his perfect nose and the faint stubble trying to peak through above his lips. 

Those lips.

 A pink rose color and kissable. 

I slowly let out the breath i was holding in, he seemed to notice but he didn't say anything and never moved from the way we were. My phone began to ring again. 

"I-I should get tha-that." I said in a low tone still looking at him and him looking at me intensely. 

"So get it." He said in a low husk like face. 

I couldn't move, i didn't want too if i was being honest. The rang kept on for a few more seconds before it stopped. Then a ding chimed out my phone. Text message. 

Then a loud boom erupted, scaring us both for a second and then the lights lit up in the sky. 

Fireworks. 

We both turned and watch them in silence. 

Together. 

I felt his hand lace with mines as the fireworks sparkled so brightly in the sky. I froze for a moment not sure what to do. what should i do. 

Runaway. 

But i didn't, i welcomed his hands into mines for a moment and then i released facing him. He turned to me and the way our bodies gravitated towards one another it felt like magnets.

 Our faces where in kissing length, 

our breathes matching the our,

 our eyes locked. 

He eased more towards my lips, i closed my eyes waiting for the moment i had dreamed of. hell the moment most girls dreamed of. This was about to happen. I was gonna kiss Shawn Mendes. 

"I cant Shawn."