Consumed || Shawn Mendes ||

Barricade

Seeing him perform live was like the most euphoric feeling ever. It was hard to explain exactly what it felt like other then magic. It was like being in a whole different world. His world. His passion seeped through everything he did. He definitely did grow as a singer, vocally, performance wise as well. He was more confident and comfortable on stage. Thank you too all those festival runs he did over the summer last year. The whole show was simply magically. 

I had gotten front row to his show as a treat to myself of course. So the 'Traveler' seemed surprised to see me on the other side of her. She gave me the cheeky fake smile and she flipped her hair to adjust her attention to the main stage. I was just thrilled to even be here, i didn't seem to understand what the big deal was. But she seems to be relishing and posting so many selfies of her at barricade. #Barricadelife 

The arena then got dark and the screams became an uproar and the introduction music dropped. In the darkness you saw the band running to their designated areas. The music grew louder and the fans got louder. The lights then slowly showcased a flash of neon pinks and purples surrounding the stage. The band started playing the first song, the crowd roars grew to an uproar. I got nervous but it was more over excitement and i started clapping and jumping with the strangers around me. And then he came out from under the stage and he stood there in the middle of the stage with his microphone stand in front of him and his guitar behind him. He looked so godlike in a burgundy color short sleeve button up and a black tee peaking through and his famous all black skinny jeans and boots. He smiled and he brushed his hand over to capture the escaped curl in the middle of his forehead. God he was truly beautiful it was kind of sickening. But i couldn't bring myself to tear away from him. And the show began. 

Almost two hours later and the show was soon coming to an end and he began playing his first ever single 'Stitches' and i found myself singing my heart out along with him and the entire arena. He then came towards the section i was in and suddenly i felt a swarm of bodies pushing up against me to get his attention. Girls where pushing and elbowing their way through to get a small glance of him up close. Phones were waving all around and above me as i tried to hold my position on the barricade. As he started to kneel down towards the front of my row i felt my body being pinned to the barricade rail and i just raised my hand out singing my heart and soul out along with millions. He held on to my hand for what felt like forever, but in actuality was literally 10 seconds. But in those seconds our hands collided and he mad eye contact with me. Everything in that moment then became fuzzy and muffled, i no longer heard the million of fans screams and cry's. I then knew what the whole appeal was of seeing him up close and just having that chance of a connection with him. The connection he spoke about making with at least one or two fans in a crowd during certain songs. And i was one of them.My feelings were all over the place the best one i could describe was awe and amazement. As our fingers released and he raised his mic up for everyone to sing along yet again to the chorus , he looked at me one more time and he smiled before placing his free hand to his chest and he got up and went to the other end and sang his high notes like melodies. 

That moment was when i knew everything had sparked for me. 

I felt like he saw me for me.