Consumed || Shawn Mendes ||

Meet And Greet

Who would have thought I would be meeting him once again? This time I was given this opportunity after winning a game while online outside waiting for the doors to the venue to open through Shawn Access. Talk about sheer luck.

As the short brown haired woman quickly ushered me through the sea of people frantically running around I was close on her heels. She spoke so loudly into her headset and we went through a curtain like entrance and she stopped.She turned to face me and said "wait on line and your turn will come. You'll have an opportunity to get three pictures taken at once and then you quickly follow the rose like stickers to the exit. " I nodded my head and said thank you before she disappeared somewhere behind me.

My heart was easily pounding so loudly I heard it in my eardrums and in my throat. My hands grew slightly sweaty and my hand damp. I needed to calm down.

The line wasn't to long thankfully. I was getting tired of lines very easily. I ran my hands on my sides of my blue dark denim jeans , quickly adjusted my low neck cut on my plain black shirt. My hair was now in a soft wavy mess only because of the humidity.

I was going to see him twice in one day? Would he recognize me from earlier this morning? Was this extremely selfish of me? I dont think so, i mean i DID just impulsively travel to see him just cause. I missed him? How could you miss someone you dont truly know?

I was snapped out of my train of thought by Shawn's security guy asking me if i was ready. I easily nodded my head and the tingly sensation came back in the pit of my stomach as i saw him standing a few feet away from me with his photo set design in the background. It was all made up of beautiful pink and red flowers and vines cutting through them in bunches. He looked so relaxed in a plain black crew neck fitted tee, his famous all black skinnies. He smiled at me and extended his arm out as in for me to come over. I couldn't control my smile as i looked over at the one constant in my life. In that moment i got lost in my movements and before i knew it i was practically running into his arms. With my chest practically colliding into him i heard him laugh a low chuckle and he just wrapped his arms around my body not to tight. God he smelled amazing. It felt like an eternity before he released our embrace. I quickly stepped back to catch my breath and slow my heart rate back to normal.

"Are you okay love?" He asked cocking his head to the side looking at me with a half smile on his lips. God No i wasn't !

"Yes, no. Yeah I'm fine. I didn't mean to just jump on you like that. Its just I've been having a hard time so i needed a hug. I know how weird that sounds now that i said it out loud." I said covering my cheeks with both hands and closing my eyes in utter embarrassment.

He just seemed to rub my back ever so lightly in such a comforting way, it made me want to just hug him again. So i did. This time he seemed to be expecting it as he allowed me to rest my head on his chest for a moment and he caressed my back now with both hands on me. This felt like everything i needed. It felt right.

"Its not weird Hun. I get it. I'm glad i can hopefully help". He said as he continue to rub my back and allow me to just rest myself into him.

His body guard then cleared his throat to signal my time was up. I opened my eyes not knowing i had them closed to begin with, and i stepped out of the hug. He smiled and i returned it back. I then turned to walk toward the exist and he pulled me back slightly by the wrist.

"Your forgetting the pictures Hun. I believe we have two more."He said pointing to the camera woman. I had forgotten all about the photos.

I turned back and shook my head and walked back towards him.

"How would you like to take the photos?" He asked me. God i didn't even get to think about poses.

"Ehrm, I dont know. I kind of forgot everything once i saw you." I said in an honest tone, quickly regretting that. Again he smiled and he seemed to be staring directly into my eyes but it could've just been my imagination.

"Okay maybe like a prom date pose"? The camera woman spoke for both of us. We both looked over at her and he quickly blinked and shook his head, as in coming back from his thoughts? I just moved myself in front of him awkwardly with space between my backside and his front side. I didn't wanna invade his personal space, again. I then felt his arms wrap around my stomach and he stepped into the embrace not to much but enough for us to be close like. I then placed my hands over his and i tilted my head to the side and he filled the gap with his face. I held my breath not wanting to breath in fear a small moan might escape. This felt so personal and it made me feel things i probably shouldn't.

"Okay. great. cute. stay just like that." The camera woman shouted and she quickly took the photos. Two loud shutters and it was done.

I let out a deep sigh to finally breath and i stepped forward and i said a rushed thank you before heading towards the exist. As i was about to go through the curtain he quickly said, "thank you. see you at the show". I turned and he quickly gave me a small smile and our eyes seemed to meet again. Then he turned back to meet the next eagerly excited fan.
And a ping of jealously seemed to hit me momentarily.